Sunday, August 29, 2010
All for what?
for the sake of experiencing the slightest sense of approbation. for the sake of knowing i'm appreciated and actually of value.
God it's not fair. I must have already given everything i've got but getting nothing in return. Positively the stupidest form of transaction that humans make. all the stupid holy answers are useless and by themselves, they don't mean a thing!
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Thursday, August 26, 2010
over the week:
1) "amanda you need to work harder" *insert exclamation marks*
just who are you to even hint that i'm not working hard? i had to tolerate being yelled at, shoved at, fight back tears, and listen to words that do nothing but tear me down, believing that the only person left who believes in me is down to myself. i work my ass off, but apparently i cant improve fast enough for you.
typical hypocrite. sure, go on saying how much you're committed to this and to that, but if you think it's beneath you to explain basic moves to someone like me who's starting on ground zero, if you cant control your temper, then you're just like the rest of the world.
when the entire team was covered in mud, i longed to be equally filthy. can you imagine? but no, some people just don't have enough faith to pass the blardy ball. i'm sorry i let you down. sarcastic as it may sound, i really was.
it's good in a way. you're toughening me up. being stuck with the likes of you trains my willpower. you're making me stronger whilst you're tearing me down. good for you. good for me too.
2) lousy accountability
no more to be said.
3) Erica James' "Act of Faith"
Another one of those authors who like to play around the subject of God. so many different points of view on this matter are thrown at me this season. and i thought i'd considered it all. naturally, it'd take tremendous faith not to waver.
one of those phases where the subject matter keeps hitting home - amanda you're worthless and totally dispensable. convenient too.
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Wednesday, August 18, 2010
i just found the cutest pic ever!!!!!!!
more over
here!!!
SO CUTE LAH! *gushes*
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Friday, August 06, 2010
my phone has been kidnapped by sony ericsson and i am pissed. faux tel no. too. how wonderful. grrr
on another note, am happy and thankful for aunty colleagues. though not necessarily good workers or team mates, they're really nice people (:
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Thursday, August 05, 2010
Some people only have eyes for themselves.
Ynoe what i mean. no matter how religious, you can still be self-centred and not know it. issit wrong to feel disappointed?
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Wednesday, August 04, 2010
Why never to ask favours from designers. hehhehehe.
http://buttonz75.wordpress.com/2010/06/30/why-never-to-ask-favours-from-the-designers/
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Monday, August 02, 2010
to boss, i'll always be the milo girl (coz the first time she insisted on buying me a drink, i said horlicks, but she doesnt rmb)
our rs is hard to fathom. she can be a total bitch (like today), yet do small stuff that are actually nice from time to time. pj says it's cause she wants a favour from me. well... i doubt it (some good has to be in that woman, right?)... we'll see.
been having lots of fun lately :)
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