Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Sigh.
My table has never been messier. E worst thing is, Ive run outta thick ring files n e space to put them!
But i cant Bear throwing ath out! But i need to! But but but...
*groans*
Haha.

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Monday, May 26, 2008

presenting to you...

a rainball! (nope, not bow. ball.)

ISNT IT SOOOOOO BEAUTIFUL !?!?!!
its beyond description!
(actually it reminds me of paddlepop. ahahhahaaaaa *nostalgia*)
sooo pretty that we actually stopped our bball game just to stare at it for e nxt 5 minutes or so.
i was overwhelmed with awe.
the Creator outdid himself this time. woohoo!
:D :D :D

"dont give up for your struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, powers of this dark world and the spiritual forces of evil in the spiritual realm"

-chubster

yea
so true.

my practicality makes me feel like a fool too often.

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Sunday, May 25, 2008

ehh i had a weird series of dreams last night!

1) went to SUBWAY for dinner with cell.
seeee!!! i yearn for it so much that i even dreamt of it!!!!!!! crap!

2) varma the chindian refused to speak to me
(actually kindda a reality hahahahahaaaaa. tsk tsk such childishness. :P )

3) i was mugging last minute for some exam.
............................................. erm.. ya.
so very disturbing man.

but im pressing on, pressing on, fueled by strength from an external source, not giving up just yet even though i been whining & declaring abt how hopeless e situation seems.
to persevere. to be persistent. to be disciplined. to believe. to dare to believe.

anw, thank God!!! seriously! mum's looking sooo good now u wun even suspect that she had been too sick to walk just 2 days ago!
muhahahaha muhahaha thanks for all ur prayers.
when she actually shouted at my sisters for being idiots this morning (which managed to wake me up), i was actually quite happy.
she actually has strength to do that now!
wahahaaaaa
alrighty. im off :)

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Thursday, May 22, 2008

pretty words mean nothing.
dang.
i am too sensitive for my own good.

ohh..didnt get to listen to e principal's speech today. she wisely cancelled her talk.

on another note,
pls pray for my mum. it wld mean a lot.
she's been really sick for e past 2 wks, n no 1 knows whats wrong.
im worried, and afraid.
thanks loads

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Wednesday, May 21, 2008

sometimes i think we underestimate the title of the King.
the king of a country is THE ruler. He's to be obeyed. He is just. His word stands & overrides all. the ppl respect him and he's the super super ultimate zhai kia.

but OUR King, is all that and more.
for one, our King is 100% full of pure love.
we're not just subjects, but His children!

on another note,
i
cant
wait
for
the
holidays
to
come
because
i
feel
like
im
dying.

*cries a river of salty tears till alligators come over to swim*

im currently in the i-dunno-how-to-improve-anymore phase.
so when e principal talks to us tmr (yes, she wants to talk. to US! in the LT! just how many is she intending to 'talk' to?!! goodness! ), i be giving her my stoned expression, & try my very best not to comment on her 'suggestions'.
i should buy a mouthguard (?) to shut myself up to prevent myself from yadah-ing crap.
because her "inspirational talks" arent inspirational at all.
sound more like insults to our intelligence.
and i do not like her. she puts on false smiles.
how can i trust her?!

*groans*

im standing on the edge.
only a spark of hope

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Tuesday, May 20, 2008

MEMORABLES :D

18/05/08 sunday

to VCH with changi to watch SAJC's jo..i mean, concert band perfrom

and raffles was being beautiful !!!!

at times like this, u just HAVE to take pictures w a pal

friends since ...

*counts*

darn. i still lose to her at the my-eyes-are-bigger game.

19/05/08 monday

WEST COAST PARK with some of my FAVOURITE PPL :D:D:D

the gamemasters

er... suntanning at every opportunity?

we pigged out

or at least, tried to

SOMEBARDY: "...n we need 47 feet, 13 fingers!"

*at the end of the game*

gamemaster shun: *drops jaws* "is 13 fingers 47 feet!!!!!!!!!"

us: ...........................

forced passer-bys to take pics for our team at checkpoints

held a mtg to determine e winner via a massive debate

the triumphant winners get to bash us with the ever precious waterbombs

their leader aka andyong, was just being sadistic by filming it all down.

us taking our forfeit like fearless champs.

but...in all e fun, forgot to take pics of the actual PROCESS.

had loads of fun killing each other

AND dinnered together as happy n contented lobsters and tomatoes

BUT in all e fun, we forgot to take a group photo.

BUT ITS OK! its hard to forget the day :D

and because i was so zonked out from ytd, i sat thru 90% of my lessons today in a daze, answered qns as to why im sooooooo red/black, K.O-ed the mmt i reached home after school and just woke up 2 hours ago.

alrighty. back to sleep :)

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Sunday, May 18, 2008

koped from shunster :P

see the moon at the right of e pic? (at least, i THINK it was the moon?)

made me realise, we ought to live like the moon.

to be reflectors, and reflectors alone.

in the picture, only the sun in all its glory deserves praise for being beautiful.

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Thursday, May 15, 2008

i have to say, i love you guys!

we had our annual x-country aka jogathon ytd at east coast park

n we ran as competitors! im 44! (apparently i had an affinity with e no.4 that day.haha i know what u superstitious ppl are thinking, but no, nth horrible happened to me)

maine + chang's candid take. same expression haha. wei looks like she's cooking up some evil plot.

ah bee n her SUBWAY COOKIE!!!

yes!! we had subway for dinner! tabao-ed n ate at e breakwater..e weather was awesome!

i love subway lahs! andy ong, how can u ever be sick of it?! wahahaaa

maine ADORES subway. e entire college knows! hur hur :P

e reason my face looks distorted is coz i just stuffed e last bite of bread into my mouth. its soooo nice man!!!!! ahhhhsss fffoooooodddd ffffooooddd thank God for food

all smiles. kitty was reluctant to smile PROPERLY coz she messed up while eating !! heeeee

e thing abt taking emo pics on purpose is, u MUSNT do what she did.
coz it makes u look suicidal. haha

picture perfect :)

i must say, this particular x-country has been the most relaxed one for me. i guess coz there's no pressure to perform exceptionally well.

i rmb e ai days, where e trackers wld always run till they fall flat on e ground after every single race. hee gd times though..gd times. this time, e run doesnt matter as much. its e time we finally spent tgt outside of e classroom! after As, we shld seriously take some random bus around s'pore so we (mostly me) wun be sooo fascinated with e other corners of s'pore we've nvr seen before. ah yes. imma noob.

great run anyway! wahhhaaaaa so proud of 213 :D

on a different note,

i realised tt ive been asking Him lots n lots n LOTS of qns lately. yes, i had doubts.

proverbs 21:30 "There is no wisdom, no insight, no plan that can succeed against the Lord"

indeed, God's word is non-debattable. that i know. prob with me is, i nvr fail to fail to see the big picture! oh how i fall short of His glory.

i was reminded of pd's sermon last year on DISARMING OUR DOUBT. & after reading it again n again, im soooooo comforted, n sooooooo encouraged. why?

1. its gd to know im human

2. doubts do not depict the absence or weakening of faith, but rather, are OPPORTUNITIES of faith.

uh huh. *nods in agreement*

you dun find flaws in the word of God. It finds flaws in you.

and its back to mugging. xi kueh, i tell u, mr energizer aka maths tutor practiced QUOTA sampling. seriously! wun so zhun dio the maths rep to submit e files de lor! ggggAAAAAhhhhh

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Tuesday, May 13, 2008

my MATHS teacher is a fine example of ALLOCATIVE INEFFICIENCY.
whats allocative inefficiency?
as defined by wikipedia -> distribution of resources between alternatives does not fit with consumer taste (perceptions of costs and benefits).
in other words, its when ure in e wrong place. ure "talents" dun belong in here, but somewhere else.

everyday i see him serves as a wonderful reminder that
LIFE - DREAMS = JOB

seriously,
he should quit.
213 agrees with me wholeheartedly.

THEREFORE,
i propose a negotiation.
*evil grin*
mmmmm yes yes. shall get u guys' opinions tmr. muhaha

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Monday, May 12, 2008

not every qn requires an answer.
yups. thats what i learnt.
how much u cry, kick, beg, etc etc, oso no use.
if He chooses not to tell you, He will not. maybe He felt that u didnt nd to know, coz it wasnt significant.
and when He didnt answer, i became afraid.
yes, afraid.
i even slept afraid! afraid that He'd chosen to hide his face. i couldnt bear to know that.

but of cos, considering how good He is, He woke me up n flooded me with many many many verses. that instantly erased all fear.

ok. abstract post aside.

honestly, im feeling rather desperate.
why? the dreaded word ------ SCHOOL
im at my wits end. the grades are just STUCK there no matter what i do man!
gahhhh
*tears hair out*

how do you define intelligence? are you considered "smart" and worthy of employment ONLY if you get manage to obtain some degree?

"success in life is a matter not so much of talent/opportunity as of concentration & perseverance."

its times like this that really make me wanna just forget abt mugging n dreaming to be an orang asli with sotong chang.
but im still clinging on to hope (no matter how slight).
and im especially encouraged by last sat's testimonies & sermon.
they seemed tailor-made!
what perfect timing too :)

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Tuesday, May 06, 2008

im dying to share chubby's qt, but since it's chubby's qt, i dunno if im allowed to
:S
ahahahaha.

anyways,
today was class photo-taking day! this time, kitty's hair is much nicer, wei ee's in e picture, i FINALLY am deemed tall enuf to stand beside HER, and shelby only has 1 face.
n i realised, this is gonna be e very last class photo i be taking with these wonderful ppl, and in uniform.
awwwww man...

we were also target setting for As.
sigh.
*and u hear e sighs echoing around e classroom*

university doesnt seem to be within my reach!

nevertheless, i dare say jc has moulded me into a tougher individual, so no regrets.
i aint giving up yet.
its amazing.
He's e one who turns my hopelessness to faith, every single time.

unoe i USED TO think religion has got EVERYTHING to do with psychology.
ie. u naturally feel better after saying a prayer because u just poured ur heart out to some invisible being/knowing tt an invisible being will be there for you.
but but but, hur hur
grace & experience tells another story. phew!

onward soldiers!

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Thursday, May 01, 2008

think u arnt good enough?
(yes, was guilty of it)

1 chronicles 28:20
"be strong and courageous, dont be afraid or discouraged by the size of the task, for the Lord my God is with you, He will not fail you or forsake you."

:)
ever faithful

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