Wednesday, May 30, 2007
juz a break frm work...
been doing some thinking lately
my blog sounds super emo lately
mayb its coz ive been thinking too much ahahakz
but i cant help it..
i keep thinking abt taman =(
how much i wanna go back to sec sch life
where u can actually SLACK during e hols, get bored to death wiv nth to do/no places to go
it was soooo boring tt i craved for hmk n sch to reopen
but now leh! crazy mans....sch sch sch..my brain gonna boom liao....
my brain juice all evaporating
boooooooo
student leaders! lets start our own village at taman can?
co-exist wiv e afro orang aslis
den we swim in e river everyday...
expose urself to exfoliating mud baths everyday...
seriously, my skin feels smoother AHAHAKZ
eesh...muz learn to cherish wat u hav right now
budden there seems to b more lians & bengs in sec sch than jcs...ahahakz so my frens n i concluded tt lians & bengs all go poly le...in my mind i think when dey buay tahan dey'll juz end up bashing a lecturer shld dey step into a jc
budden i still miss sec sch lehs
wats wrong wiv me mans
ahahahakz guess im missing e "super mixed races" feeling..
its soooo chinese here
mayb tts y God gave me a super super super china chinese grp for taman....
HAHA no wonder i only mix wiv e few guys! coz dey dun speak chinese!
-_-"
ok back to work
post taman bluesi miss running...anyone up for a run?? acudan?? ys?? ANYONE??
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2:33 PM
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
i cant believe we took tis pic in e midst of saving tents frm a downpour =)
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3:24 PM
Sunday, May 27, 2007
im gonna miss taman...
to my guys n gals of B5..ure missed =(
ure worth my tons of sweat, cuts, bruises, bites and exhaustion
becos of tis trip, i now noe wat it feels like to lead...
strenous strenous..nevertheless satisfying..
working alongside e teachers was such a different experience altogether
talking to them abt e students really brings about heartaches..
when u see students gg thru a rebellious streak,
when u know e way dey act is a result of many problems back home..
teachers n student leaders,
we've been thru this together
all e tears we shed weren't for naught n i TRUELY TRUELY will miss working tgt
U showed urself to me tis whole wk
U gave
B5 - such nice ppl tt i cldnt ask for more
dey gave me e encouragement i nded when i tot tt ive already worked to my limit
U provided
right when i didnt hav e strength at all to go on, u gave it to me
not alot, but juz sufficient to last until im in a safer place to collaspe
U protected
nothing unwanted could touch me even tho they were near
n u gave rain when i told u i cldnt take e heat anymore
im back people^^
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6:11 PM
Sunday, May 20, 2007
TRINITY:)
.
i encouraged others to share
but i find it hard for myself to..
a part of me wanted to
but something witheld me
.
guess im scared
guess im afraid of ppl brushing such stuff away
guess i thought it'd b better off if i drowned alone
guess i nd more time...
.
identity in Christ..
no false fronts
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He said i must not despair
He showed me
He told me not to worry, not to be scared
His word keeps repeating in my head
...
but im still scared
wat if im not up to it?
wat if i cause chaos instead of teambuilding?
wat if i lose it coz of mental fatigue?
.
a part of me believes
a part of me fears
its not right, i know
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11:22 AM
Thursday, May 17, 2007
taman negara in 4 days!!!!!!!
hehkz...
kindda looking 4ward to it, at e same time abit afraid....
if my kids dun listen to me,
DIE ARHS
12 lives entrusted to me
=\
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9:56 PM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
=O
i dun care if ure christian or not
something wonderful juz happened!!
as many noe by now, my blogger is supposedly down....
but i really wanted to blog !
wanted to share...so i tried praying.. n here i am!!!!
HE IS SO HIGH TECH LAH!
hmms anw..
schs been exhausting...
i see sisters on e verge of stopping gg to to church cos of e overwhelming workload
i see some breakdwn in frnt of me
some cant even focus on ath
some act as tho they've given up life
u cant imagine e scene...
everyone's basically walking arnd like zombies
then i start feeling so helpless coz i dunno how to help dem
their minds are shut so tight..not 1 single alphabet i say will register
they noe its not right, yet dey juz cant break outta tt cycle
sometimes it feels as tho im alone even when im surrounded wiv frens at sch
juz cant talk to anyone abt stuff i nd to hear most..
its hard to explain but yea....kairi understands right?
anw...
i bet everyone hu read tis blog knows my r/ship wiv my family sux big time
recently it got better...
im actually starting to feel for them now
1st time i dare say i love my family
1st time in a looonnngg while
i dun care if u dun believe / if u think tis is crap
God is good
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9:59 PM
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
happiness? i found it when i went back to Christ^^
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10:17 PM
Monday, May 07, 2007
how awesome is that?
my God created it
aint He amazing?
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aniways..yanni/grace/any1 else passing by
pls pray 4 me yarhs..
havn been sleeping well these past few days...
its either nightmares/ random dreams tt nvr fail to exhaust me even as i sleep
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me at sch:
(1) definately flunked bio SPA
(2) comforted myself coz every1 dinno how to do it too
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me at home:
(1) mugging for maths, bio, chem
(2) thinking of ways to comfort myself after all e disastrous tests tmr
(3) mentally preparing for phototaking + napfa test
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God, im gonna do my best n leave e results all to u
if its ur will, den so be it
let my actions glorify u
.
have you ever been alone in a crowded room
-darkblue-
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8:28 PM
Sunday, May 06, 2007
[therefore, there is now no condemnation for those hu are in Christ Jesus]
[God justifies those who have faith in Jesus]
[thru him everyone who believes is justified frm everything]
[for i will forgive their wicknesses n will rmb their sins no more]
[for you died, n ur life is now hidden with Christ in God]
these are e foundations of true courage if ure in Christ.
failure is no longer a concern for you
e battle is already won
truth will trimph.
the Father of truth will win
and e followers of truth will be saved
was i meant to read all those?
OH YEA
=)
*thx shermaine for lending me "the applause of heaven"*
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7:01 PM
had a nightmare
this time it was abt e movie i watched at church last night
abt e endtimes
horrible lahs!!!
so tired now coz i had been running all over yishun in my "DREAM"
i saw all kinds of things christians did to escape tt bastard lucifer
i saw my frens wiv e mark suspecting me
oh mans it was scary
i couldnt find yanni/grace aniwhere!
yes im scared
will i be able to stand strong when that day comes?
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10:48 AM
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
hehehekz
i juz realised MANY MANY goondus out there dunno howta use my tagboard
lolz lolz lolz
very easy..
juz click on e SIAO button
den, TADA!
hohoho HAZEL..i said tt specially for u n jo hahahhahahahahakz
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8:01 PM
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Lord,
teach me to love
inoe wat im facing right now is part of ur plan
n its for my gd
Lord i pray tt u'll gimme strength
n help me to focus on you alone
in Jesus' name, amen
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5:34 PM
oh now i see ur true colours
so $$$ means more to u now does it?
fine man..
cant believe u
do i even mean ath to u at all?
to think u actually had e cheek to tell me u had intentions of giving me away to ur sisters shld dey want a child
wow mum, how touching
i didn't noe u actually cared that much for me
i hate public holidays
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2:37 PM
TRINITY:)
happiness? i found it when i went back to Christ^^