Wednesday, February 28, 2007

curfews are a total injustice to the youth above 16
its supposed to b a free country :(

last day of sch at aj is nxt tuesday..
every1's planning to come back to sch
was reading e piece of ppr wiv every1's encouragements on it 4 me
of cos, as expected, i got emo

12/07
im gonna miss e gay-ing of e guys
im gonna miss e malay fd, roti prata, hor fun, fried guo tiao, mango pudding, honeydew, tortoise-jelly, ice chocolate, chicken rice, crepe
im gonna miss my food buddy
im gonna miss our treks to nyp
im gonna miss failing our tests together
im gonna miss taking secret pics of haebehiam looking blur
im gonna miss e silent encouragements we pass each other during pe sessions
im gonna miss spurring each other on during 2.4km runs
im gonna miss warming up tgt
im gonna miss getting sunburnt tgt
im gonna miss asking each other if e redness was due to horni-ness
im gonna miss our after pe showers
im gonna miss singing tgt
im gonna miss our lunch sessions tgt
im gonna miss swopping phones
im gonna miss swopping specs
im gonna miss blowing into ur ears
im gonna miss greeting each other wiv kicks
im gonna miss laughing abt pei pei's retardedness tgt
im gonna miss giving my food buddy a bball greeting
im gonna miss haebehiam n her water tank
im gonna miss pang ma ye

im gonna miss amashibe
im gonna miss our jokes abt candice's horni-ness
im gonna miss threatening to rub yt's tummy
im gonna miss enduring lectures tgt
im gonna miss e times we attempted wushu tgt
im gonna miss watching movies tgt during gp tutorials
im gonna miss "civics lessons" tgt
im gonna miss hanging ber's bear on e fan
im gonna miss urging pei pei to cut her bush of a head tgt
im gonna miss "chem lessons" tgt

im gonna miss attracting flies tgt aft lab sessions
im gonna miss laughing at joee's chocolate spot

im gonna miss sharing headphones
im gonna miss making crepe tgt

im gonna miss being part of this class

PARDUS
im gonna miss cheering tgt
im gonna miss winning tgt

im gonna miss celebrating bdays tgt
im gonna miss pardus table

im gonna miss our "meetings"
im gonna miss e dares we made pardus guys do tgt
im gonna miss our meal dates tgt
im gonna miss my ogls
im gonna miss bullying terry tgt

im gonna miss jh n kenneth's crap
im gonna miss our extreme badminton sessions tgt
im gonna miss ur encouragements
im gonna miss e bond we shared

2 months wasnt tt short afterall

12/07 ,
pardus ,

thanks(:

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AJ = PANDA FACTORY

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz its soo hard to crawl outta bed

i nd 10 hrs of beauty slp lorz!!

i used to b able to stay alert on bus rides

but now leh! i ZZZZ within 5 min

nvm nvm..its juz 2 yrs..ok mayb 3

man does not live on bread (or slp) alone..

muz psycho myself..coz yj will allow me to have lesser slp

arrrhhhhsssss

muz chiong

yes yes

DETERMINATION + PERSEVERENCE

muz live by AI track team motto --> no pain no gain

zzzzz

zzzz

zzz

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Monday, February 26, 2007

was reading abit of "the heavenly man" today....
its so real..
its abt e persecution of christians in china...
it makes me feel sooo blessed to be in singapore, where we're all free to choose our own religion
yet to think tt we dun get e chance to really test our faith..hmmss
its such a convicting book..

anw anw today was such a -_-" day
couldnt bathe after pe coz i forgot to pack extra clothing
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
stupid right!! i was so tired tt i packed my bag in e dark e night b4
ahhs ok lesson learnt : switch on e LIGHTS!

i
am
mentally
exhausted

seriously cant take it animore.....
i cant make myself study
especially when inoe i wun b staying in tt sch
so i havnt been studying for my tests
no prize for guessing i flunked 70% of them
den i get super discouraged
alamak y liddat...

to study or not to study,
tt is the question

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Friday, February 23, 2007

was looking at some of my prev posts..n wow
im amazed at how much ive changed
all i ever blogged abt in e past was based on 1 single emotion - anger
its all so immature

i din place God in my life at all
gg to church was juz a habit
a hypocrite
i say im a christian, but my heart questions
how did things turn tt way then?

i couldnt hear Him, i couldnt feel Him
i wanted out, but i juz couldnt break free frm tt maze
lost, uncertain, my heart longing for more than wat i was gg thru then
blaming
cursing
crying
in e darkness

im so glad things hav turned around
like a lost sheep finally returned to its pen
im so glad ive returned to Him

life without Jesus was like hell on earth
i dun wanna ever let go of His hands ever again
in e end,
i wanna b able to b wiv Him in His kingdom
in e place tt He meant for me

faith..i wanna keep my faith

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Thursday, February 22, 2007

i tink ive got too much pride
quarreled wiv amabel today AGAIN
u wan me to giv in to her, i rather die
serious..tts how bad it is
hmm well at least tis time diff..i actually PITIED her
aiz aiz..God help me

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Wednesday, February 21, 2007

i tink i ate too much goodies
now all i feel like doing is vomitting
ahhss tis is horrible
so tis is how pregnant women feel like arhs?
i dun wan!

tis wk is so full of sickness
1st e surprise asthma attack
2nd e vomitting
3rd e lethargic-ness
.....

haizhaiz..i really wanna pon sch lehs..
so sick of it
me cont to go to aj is like..totally meaningless lah!
e stuff dey teach is diff frm other jcs....
furthermore, if i go, i gotta take tests

but mum dun lemme pon='(

saved my soul, made me new, now i live for you
-from God above-

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Monday, February 19, 2007

tis is more of 12/07

finally!

its e end of visiting!!! hallelujah!!!

bth lah!! tis particular hse i visited arhss....so sian!

everybody ish soooo senior citizen de

den e aunties ask such weird qns

for eg--> got bf already anot? dun have?! sure anot?! hav u oso wun tell me right

blah blah blah

crap arhss!!!!

if not for e fd + new clothes + ang pao i wld hav stayed right at home!

budden i luv visiting tis other particular hse also...vry1 abt e same age...

so its fun

ahhs im like..contradicting myself..

i cant wait for saturday!!!!!!!!!

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Friday, February 16, 2007

this is 12/07

God had it all planned right frm e start..
ever since i received my results, ive been thinking of how ppl wld think of me..
stupid? suay? pathetic?
i was flipping thru "experiencing God" n right away, e pg where i recorded my walk wiv God jumped out at me..
e dog caught my attention..
it was to tell me to run free...back then it din make any sense but now it does=)

ok ok..tt prob din make any sense to u ppl..i juz needed to write it dwn sumwhre
anw..
went to jo's church today...YI is still better muahahakz
shopped wiv jo for her cny clothes..tt girl is so indecisive! u can die crying, watching her trying to pick out clothes lolz
hmmz seems like every1 is becoming more n more last min in buying clothes nowadays...
XIANG DANG NIAN... some of my frens bought their stuff in e prev yr!

I FLUNKED MATHS TEST!!!
wahahahahkz shiok arhs! i damn buay song tt ANDY QUEK liaoz..
so when he gave out e stupid slips of our test ppr i juz sat there like a moron..scribbled some stuff in pencil n handed it in
4 MARKS AH!!!
hehkz.. doesnt matter animore anyway

ahh i feel gd...its as tho tis huge weight has been mercifully lifted off me
hmmss...but im still not looking forward to cny..its so boring!!
no offence to cny lovers out there

happy belated valens ppl!

...shina..i really dunno how to help u...all i can tell u to do,is to pray
cry out to Him n persevere!
wat u said also hit home..
i prayed abt it, y was i still so upset??
hmms..i guess it was e shock bah..i oso dunno y im so sad even tho i know tt his plans are the best FOR SURE..
hmmmsss yupyups...
sure gonna miss u guys

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Tuesday, February 13, 2007

cant take it anymore

mum+dad,
y cant u guys understand me at all?
yes ive changed but its only temporary
u think i can recover so fast ah?
y cant u juz shut up n leave me alone
y cant u let me be?
all ure doing is makin it worst
i nvr believed my family wld understand n i was right

sweet sorrow

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Monday, February 12, 2007

played 4 hrs of badminton wiv pardus today....
so glad so glad....
it helped lift my state of depression..
thx for not asking abt results=)

haiz..mum doesnt understand..
e way ive been acting e past few days is not coz im trying to giv u attitude
its coz i juz dun feel like talking to ani1
i juz dun feel like eating
u get it anot?
leave me alone for awhile can anot?

there dey go comparing results again
ive got smart cousins, inoe..u dun havta tell mi

shackled freedom yet again

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Sunday, February 11, 2007

went swimming today
swimming is gd....
it felt as tho i was washing away all my troubles

[2 cor 4:16-18]
"therefore we do not lose heart.though outwardly we are wasting away,yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light n momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory tt far outweighs them all. so we fix our eyes not on wat is seen, but on wat is unseen. for wat is seen is temporary, but wat is unseen is eternal"

shackled freedom

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Saturday, February 10, 2007

my hunch was so right....
1hr non-stop.4 pkts tissue.swollen eyes.numb body
even tho inoe im to go to YJ, i juz cant accept e number on my results slip..
inoe God has sumthg gd in plan, but i juz cant accept e number yet..
time heals everything i hope
havent cried like tt for eons..scared dem abit i think
but i cant control it no matter how hard i tried...i really tried to but..
i really din wanna end 4 yrs of education like tt..
i cry...jo oso cried 4 me.....1 whole crowd there... i muz hav been 1 of e few express ppl hu cried
haiz....
im not against yj..i juz dun like my marks coz inoe it cld hav been much better
went to town wiv andy grace wei yanni
it was fun lahs.......
at least it took my mind off my results..
haiz....if i let u guys dwn im so sorry...
thx ms tan, for cont to believe in me
haiz..sure gonna miss 1207 & pardus

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Friday, February 09, 2007

e child handed his report bk to his father
e father looked thru it, closed it n said, "gd"
e child looked up surprised
"didnt u c e 2 failures i had? right there at e bottom of e pg in red!"
e father opened e bk again n looked thru it once more
but all he saw were 2 red smudges at e bottom
---------------------------------------------------------------------
our heavenly Father doesnt juz focus on our failures alone
take heart in tis=)
anw..
went pasta mania wiv pardus-or shld i say HALF of pardus=(, for dinner ytd
we crapped like nvr b4 hahakz
sure gonna miss dem
..our maths tutorial ytd was used to take pics coz tt ANDY QUEK nvr come..bodoh
but super fun lahs.....
we also sang "tong hua" tgt while waiting for SIOW LAO SHI to come....
haiz so emotional...gonna b sad when 12/07 splits

getting results ltr..
strangely i dun feel nervous or worried at all
im so glad tt i gave dem all up to Jesus
coz where i go is all part of his plan, n everything will work out
muahahahkz

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Wednesday, February 07, 2007

love this picture...koped frm yanni's blog....
anw..
so tired today! went for prayer meeting last night n got home late..
was zzzzzzz-ing during all my lectures today..ahhhhsssss bth
so glad im home now
budden haiya.....go home i feel like eating lehs
den if i eat n slp...will get tummy! cannot cannot...
haiya...so sad..
on a positive note, i can finally come online!! bwahahakz
no1 cld really study at sch today..
vry1's juz thinking n asking 1 another if dey shld bother gg to sch tml
n not forgetting taking loads of pics tgt..
tis sux! juz when we've finally bonded, 2nd intake le n vry1 gets seperated again
tsk tsk tsk....
do u wanna go to e place dey call freedom?

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Sunday, February 04, 2007

conflicts among dem again

even tho its none of my business, i must say seeing my frens liddat makes me sad

cheer up guys..uve all got me

anw...my walk wiv God ytd was awesome..

he revealed so much to me n i wanna share em

i chose to walk arnd my neighbourhood coz its damn quiet n gives me thinking space..

even tho it felt stupid at 1st....i got over tt...

He showed me some mimosa by e road

which reminded me of e times mum used to show e mimosas to me as a kid.....

He wanted me to reconcile wiv my mum coz we quarreled e night b4..

He told me to stop halfway thru our walk...stop.close my eyes.listen

n i felt His creation...e crickets..e wind..e smell of e flowers n trees..even tho e entire area had been cleared mths ago

He wanted to remind me tt in my hectic life, i gotta rmb His creation...e ppl arnd me.e unsaved

He showed me a dog running across e field

it was juz running..so freely w/o a care in e world

He wanted to tell me to be myself, not bothering myself wiv e opinions of others

He wanted me to leave all my worries at His feet

He wanted me to be happy again

[matt 11:28]

come to me all u who are weary and burdened

and i'll give you rest

be strong shina..if u dun put e big rocks in ur life 1st

ure nvr gonna get em in

put Him 1st b4 all else

n He'll definately make ur paths straight..

press on!

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Saturday, February 03, 2007

bz bz bz bz bz
its been ages since i blogged
yi da dui projects n tutorials waiting for me to b done
feel like im drowning lah!
hoho had x-country ytd....din win ath sadly=( run run halfway den my stupid ankles piak again
had dinner wiv my dearest pardus!! celebrated wan qi's bday..she gd lah..can watch m18 movies..i still gotta wait
we played truth/dare n made all e guys do really stupid dares lolz...
i shall rmb dem all as gays frm now on hahahahkz
went to marina for steamboat aft tt wiv 12/07!
arcade-ed..went home shortly aft coz of a bad migrain
kena bullied on e way home....on e mrt got tis crazy grp keep tappin my shoulders..
so bo liao lah! tap very shiok arhs! grrrr
was so happy when i alighted..
den on e bus! kena bully again!! tis other stupid grp keep talkin abt me as if i cant hear em...pretended i din coz of my earphones
haiz i shall nvr eva go home tt late again..NEVER
brought hj to church last wk=D
muahakz so happy...
shina decided to go to church today!!
muahakz so happy...
im gg to church today!!
muahahkz SO HAPPY
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