Thursday, August 30, 2007

every1 turned into pandas today becoz of rushing PW last night... or rather, really really early this morning.

y so many errors?
pls lah, look at ur own faults eg, numerous grammatical errors before u even start to comment on my faults.
FYI, im not perfect.
if u can edit 40 pages full of words without a single error whatsoever, i'll applaud u n treat u to lunch.

oh ya, u shld also try turning 1 whole chunk of rubbish submitted by urself into something tts in the least coherant at 1230am in e morning, without rest after playing squash n doing hmk. OH, n most importantly, WITHOUT e original script to refer to, coz u were holding on to it.
GO TRY LAH! GO!

y did i slp so late?
coz i had to edit EVERYTHING u did.
my gosh i had no idea wat point u were trying to explain lahs. seriously. do u know how hard it was to understand ur english?!
under normal circumstances, i wld leave it at tt. im definately not biased against ppl wiv bad english, but ur attitude towards it was as tho ure so dua pai. ugh.

oh. not forgetting u inserting bits and pieces of e many drafts u did when ive almost finished collating everything, hence causing me to have to relook e ENTIRE report again and again and again just to make sure things flow.

y most of ur editings werent in?
80% of ur work was not even relevant to our project.
u submitted 3 pages full of rubbish.
no im not exaggerating.

YES, all tt while u were snoring away in bed, n me n tt guy u dislike, aka our grp leader, were up chionging e WR.
grow up will you?
he deserves so much better than u.
ure not all that.

honestly, im really thankful to e others who tried not to make things hard for me, even encouraging me when i was in e midst of collating e WR.
oready damn tired liao den u still keep de siao us
u complain here complain there oso no use right?
NPATO. (no productive action, TALK ONLY)

needless to say, every1 was cheesed off.

pls lah. dun so kan chiong kia su kia si. u kia so many things = making things hard for urself.
ure trying to rectify a prob tt doesnt even exist.

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Sunday, August 26, 2007

mrs koh: Christians think its wrong to abort. are there any christians here?

(i raise up my hand and see tt im alone)

MK: so, u know tt abortion is not allowed right? its considered murder. wat do u think abt it?will u still carry ur child to full term if its a result of a violent rape/is deformed/born without a brain??

me: er... hmm. (truth is, tis is so cheem tt ive nvr bothered to think abt it. my mind went blank for awhile)

MK: u know, tis couple hu attended _______ din even wanna save their child hu was suffering frm sum blood prob n needed a bld transfusion coz dey believed tt God will save and heal him

me: but ______ is a CULT

MK: no its not

me: its a cult (smiles but is screaming in protest inside)

MK: its not. ( smiles as well ).. hav u ever wondered y God allows such bad things to happen to christians??

me: *keeps silent*

even if i told her, i din think she wld hav believed/understood. no, i wun wan my child to be born without a brain. i'll definately be tempted to abort. but would she have understood wat it meant to pray, wat it meant when we say its for God to mold our character, wat it meant to cling on to a hope?

MK: then will u carry a child to full term n put it up 4 adoption if its a result of a violent rape?

me: yes i will. but y put him up 4 adoption

MK: can u even bear to see e child's face? everytime u see its face, u'll be angry n reminded of e incident n u'll reject e child. will u still keep the child?!

me: yea

i sensed disbelief arnd e room.

MK: oh ok

wiv Him, i believe i'll be able to love.

now i uds wat pd meant ytd, abt being thrown into someplace out there where we're bombarded wiv qns we cant ans.

i felt totally demoralised.
i was totally unprepared for such qns.
i din defend Him coz of my own perception tt it wun make a diff.
i din pause to consider tt e others might be skeptical abt God as well becoz of my silence.

im unworthy, so unworthy..
why, why are u still so gd to me?

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Healer

You hold my every moment
calm my raging seas
walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in You
I trust in You

I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need

Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands

this song brings tears..
thks Grace 4 praying abt my ankle.
i can run n jump now!
thk God my healer :)

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Saturday, August 25, 2007

THE LORD'S BASEBALL GAME

Freddy and the Lord stood by to observe a baseball game. The Lord's team was playing Satan's team

The Lord's team was at bat, the score was tied zero to zero, and it was the bottom of the 9th inning with two outs. They continued to watch as a batter named 'Love', stepped up to the plate.

Love swung at the first pitch and hit a single, because "Love never fails."

The next batter was named Faith, who also got a single because Faith works with Love

The next batter up was named Godly Wisdom. Satan wound up and threw the first pitch. Godly Wisdom looked it over and let it pass: Ball one. Three more pitches and Godly Wisdom walked because he never swings at what Satan throws

The bases were now loaded. The Lord then turned to Freddy and told him He was now going to bring in His starplayer.

Up to the plate stepped Grace.

Freddy said, "He sure doesn't look like much!"

Satan's whole team relaxed when they saw Grace. Thinking he had won the game, Satan wound up and fired his first pitch.........

To the shock of everyone, Grace hit the ball harder than anyone had ever seen! But Satan was not worried; his center fielder let very few get by. He went up for the ball, but it went right through his glove, hit him on the head and sent him crashing on the ground; the roaring crowds went wild as the ball continued over the fence for a home run!

The Lord's team won!

The Lord then asked Freddy if he knew why Love, Faith and Godly Wisdom could get on base but couldn't win the game. Freddy answered that he didn't know why.

The Lord explained, "If your love, faith and wisdom had won the game, you would think you had done it by yourself. Love, Faith and Wisdom will get you on base but only My Grace can get you Home,

"For by Grace are you saved. it is a gift of God; not of works, lest any man
should boast." Ephesians 2:8-9
"For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord will give grace and glory; no good thing will He withhold
from those who walk uprightly." Psalm 84:11

gd news guys.. He answered my numerous prayers. Mum finally agreed to e mission trip last night. :D

"coz he's so real, so real in my life
he picked me up n turned my universe around"

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Thursday, August 23, 2007

YES ARH! my com. is. BACK.!!!!!!!! im SOOOO HAPPY CAN?! FINALLY!
it was horrible having to use other ppl's com coz it means i gotta rush thru my work.

*CELEBRATES N SINGS :D:D*

ive stopped my fast....
nah, it wasnt bcoz my mum finally agreed to e MT, but bcoz i felt tt it'll all be alright n in accordance wiv His plan even if i cant go.. even tho i want to..

OHYEA i gotta blog this..

ytd was 3nity's 1st discipleship at my house.

HAHAHA HILARIOUS.

i totally forgot to remind dem abt e NUMEROUS MULTITUDES of insects at home, especially after e rain.. HAHA...
dey were really suay to hav met a COCKROACH.
HEHEKZ.

picture this.. they go

"ZHANG LANG!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE"

& i go

" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA"

(den i stay in e room while dey RUN out..)

....... haha

read kairi's blog.... EH so i shall oso do wat she did n post 1 of my earliest posts..
dun judge arhs! tt was 2 YEARS AGO. im different now :D

Friday, October 28, 2005

so darn miserable today..kena pang seh by all e dumb sc....
come on man...2nd last day of sch oso cannot spare dem..
slping thruout e whole day....got fever...
damn...so damn pissed..haiz.....damn sad lor
aft sch go home watch 2 anime borrowed frm yanni..
destress..."desadden"..

freaking sis kept irritating me.. made a big fuss...
quarrel again n again...
quarrel wiv me den quarrel wiv youngest sis.. seriously nth better to do..
so i flared up n juz pulled her to her rm..closed e dr n went back to muh anime...
den mum came home...n e drama begins AGAIN......
shit man... on n on she nags n scolds..insulting...staring..gimme dose super cold looks of hers..

seriously..m i adopted?!
every single ting i do / say..she'll criticise...
bias to tt idiot sis..all dis is juz making me hate dem both even more..
she juz dun understand tt i hav feelings too....1 day i might juz walk out...

hard to believe we're christians when so much is going on at home..
hardly able to watch tv/eat dinner tgt as a family..
slowly tearing apart...

how much i envy jo's family...
how much i juz wanna shut myself away but all i can hear is conflict everywhre i go...
only place i find peace is at sch...but today juz sucked

-make it rite pls-

.... HAHAHA oh goodness.... din realise tt i was so full of "..shit man...damn....crap...freaking pissed.. ETC ETC".
not to mention a whole lot of emo-ism.
hehkz

indeed, things have changed.
my attitude towards my family has changed too....
i would be lying if i said its PERFECT, but its undeniable tt we're getting along much better.

oh did i mention? i found a way to go home earlier on saturdays!!!
HOHOHOHO so its HELLO JEANS AND TEE,
goodbye uniform!
mwahahakz

:D :D

your grace is enough

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Tuesday, August 21, 2007

juz a quickie frm e com lab in sch.....
coz my com dio stroke n kena admitted into CHS (Computer Hospital of Singapore)

1) parents object to mission trip to thailand

2) so im fasting for a breakthru

3) shermaine said she gang hao fasting also. HAHAHA

4) details when my com is back frm e hospital

:)

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Tuesday, August 14, 2007

WHAT JC TURNS U INTO:

PIGS,PANDAS N ZOMBIES ALIKE. HEEHEEEE

yups, tt was how most of us looked like ytd, after chionging for tests, tutorials & PW the day before.

SOME, even gg to e extent of not sleeping a wink e entire night.

yup..things are abt to get tougher..

ironically, i feel refreshed..

no more acting cold / aloof.. no more self-questioning..no more suppressing this matter & keeping it to myself for she is someone close to me.

though e pinch of how i was treated is still there, it doesnt really bother/matter to me anymore.

i was simply naive, maybe abit too trusting.

"love your neighbours but keep e fence"

oh how true

He taught me tt sometimes, treating ppl e way u wanna be treated will not make dem treat u e way u wanna be treated.

yet, we still gotta do tt.

rejection, betrayal & deception is nth new to Him. He has faced it all.

He is e only 1 in ur entire life who truely understands wat ure going thru.

today feels different.

filled with energy once more (:

your mercy's pouring down on me

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Saturday, August 11, 2007

today was an emotional rollercoaster ride... e day started off like tis, coz no 1 turned up for ssp except us.. so we took pics all e way

e more i look at it, e more it looks like a family portrait wiv me as e ahma

but i DID STUDY ok.... abit?

WEI EE.... looking gong as usual...haiz *shakes head*

bored bored bored..

me: "lets do a funny face!"

zel: "ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

ida: "NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!"

den she hides behind us

tis real nice pic was taken by me.. its blurry coz i nearly dropped e phone while snapping e pic. HAHAHA

to end it all.. CLASSIC WEI EE pose.. tsk..i swear tis was candid.

shelby..ur sotong balls are truely sotongs man... haiz.. blur like siao

2nd half of e day wasnt as feel good..
andrewcell grp split today :(

even tho i felt tt it wld be best for us to split a loonggg loonnnggg time ago,

its still painful to hear it officially announced today...

e 9 mths i spent wiv u guys truely truely made a diff in my life even tho some of us weren't as close..

its kinda hard to imagine cell grp in future without dru/hil/ade/ e rest of u guys..

especially dru..

im still trying to get used to seeing him as my ex-shepherd..

andrew cell grp is no more..

sure, some of us cried...

but i believe , i believe, tt He will multiply..

tts wat He told me during svc..

tho i dunno how, or when...i will still believe.

e bus ride home was wet n blurry..

shared kairi's mp3..

song after song He spoke to me

yups, out of my comfort zone for Jesus Is :)

i see a generation,

rising up to take their place

with selfless faith

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Friday, August 10, 2007

somemore!! btw, my eyes were open all e time. juz tt e sun very glaring lahs unoe... sports day lehs dun play play..

hmm.. i think i look cool frm behind. AHAHA thkx wei ee :)

meow,me,wei,nut

we love this face ^^

she tot i was smiling so she smiled. HAHA

went to e library to mug with wei ee....
we jio so many ppl, in e end all cmi..

juz as well, coz e library was PACKED! so hard to find even the smallest corner to sit in..

so shocking..dinno so many will be as "hardworking" as us to study on a holiday.

it was 80% productive... coz e quietness made me wanna ZZZZ real, ReAL bad...tired nia..

im e type hu can only study when my surrounding is buzzing wiv activity.

eg. BK, MAC etc..

no regrets tho... at least it was 80% productive as compared to e 40% at home.

its a saturday tmr :DD

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Thursday, August 09, 2007

to make up for e lack of photos :)
ytd's pics!

this was taken AGES ago..but i like it nia....hoho

STARRING: HAZEL N OW!! WOOTS!

804.806 bus gang :)

nah.. im not tt tall..i tiptoed n still, he's taller

zel's hair is orange..pic was taken b4 my hair turned orange:( up till now, ive still got no evidence tt my hair turned orange. BOO

the cheese btw the pickles.HAHAKZ

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to PEI CHUAN + SIMIN + SINGAPORE!!! :DD

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Wednesday, August 08, 2007

beautiful song... u gotta feel it, not listen to it

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today is such a memorable day
its e day my hair turned ORANGE!!!!!!!!! LIKE FINALLY!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHAHA!!!!!

forgot to take a pic of it tho.... :

hmms....
someone told me ive changed coz im quieter now
was thinking abt it.... NO LEHS
i think its juz coz he caught me when i was emo-ing.
not tt i emo frequently....juz tt he suay suay catch me when i gang hao emo-ing.

yups... loads of DEEP stuff hav been occupying my mind recently....
maybe tt explains y, for once, ive been looking as though im DEEP in thought..
not tt i dun usually think.. juz tt ive been thinking abit more recently.
thoughts tt i feel like i cant share wiv any1 coz dey're juz tt personal..
....oh great.. i think ive confused e majority of u. HAHAKZ :D

anw, the words AMANDA & QUIET dun go tgt.
unless its chinese lesson when e teacher starts gg about her loonnngg loonng phrases tt i will nvr understand

HAHAHAHAHAHAHKZ

though it feels good to shhhhhhhh once in a while :)

i believe in ur promise, Lord..
even though it pains me to do so, i WILL let it go

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Sunday, August 05, 2007

was singing "give us clean hands" by chris tomlin straight after svc ytd.
havnt heard it in awhile..juz had e urge to sing it.
went hme...e mmt i flipped my bible open to do my qt, tis few verses popped out, staring at me straight in e face.

[psalms 24:3-6]
3 who may ascend into e hill of e Lord? Or who may stand in His holy place?
4 He who has CLEAN HANDS n a PURE HEART, who has NOT LIFTED UP HIS SOUL TO AN IDOL, nor sworn deceitfully.
5 He shall receive blessing frm e Lord, n righteousness frm e God of his salvation.
6 this is Jacob, e generation of those hu seek Him, who seek Your face.

:D

Friday saw e worst case of biasness ive ever been faced wiv.
hu knew tt e CHINESE TEACHER of mine had sth against my face.
kept squeezing lemon on me...SUAN n SUAN until e ultimate SUAN lahs!
was like SOOOOO pissed wiv her throughout tt 1.5 hrs of torture tt i was fighting back tears.

i will not tolerate any1, not even a teacher, telling me tt im not capable/tt my attitude for learning isnt there.
i will definately not tolerate any1 telling me all that based on my outer appearance alone.
what right do u hav to judge me based on tt?!
what right do u hav to judge me at all??

u dun wanna teach me, so be it. i'll do it myself

my natural instinct was to give her my signature DIAO n my i-wanna-slap-u face.
maybe a couple of yells at her as well..

but no lehs....i managed to tahan tahan n keep my cool.
was praying frantically for God to gimme patience n a cool head.
for strength so i wun cry in frnt of HER
for endurance so i can survive her suanings

thank God for his grace
i din do ath rash
tts a miracle in itself, considering my hot-headedness

only broke dwn after tt hahakz
loads of thx to my mates for cheering me up so quickly :)

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Thursday, August 02, 2007

MO: ok u sit here, n keep pressing on tis

(hands me a red stress ball)

me: (presses e ball super happily n smiling at hazel + shermaine coz dey were still waiting in anxiety, worrying abt PAIN hahahahahahaHAHAHAA)

suddenly! e room started floating n everything goes fuzzy..
i felt increasingly nauseaus n started breaking out in COLD sweat even tho e hall was like.. freezingly uberly cold?

THK GOD THK GOD i "summoned" e mo in time b4 i blackedout
yes BLACKED OUT.. NOT faint.. hohoho
when i woke up, my chair was like tilted 45deg wiv my head facing e ground.
dey oni managed to draw half a pkt of my precious blood :(

yups tt was my 1st blood donating experience
cant say it was satisfying,
but at least i got an ORANGE bandage & free food?
not to mention an aching n bruised arm to boot

sure hope dey din throw my half-a-pkt-of-precious-A+ blood..
i rather they do some weird tests on it than splash it dwn a sink sumwhre..
if dey do arhs, my heart will break arhs!
all tt trauma of seeing a needle as big as those used for sewing n a HOOK MUST not go to waste!
think abt e 1.5 lives my half-a-pkt-of-precious-A+ blood can save!!!
dun throw it away :(

and NO JOVINA & KITTY, fainting is not an indication of weakness ok!
its juz a lower bld count lorz!
laugh sumore! GRR

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Wednesday, August 01, 2007

after bio lect

me: EH WHERE's MY RACKET?!?!!!!!!?
wei ee: har?
me: DIE i think i left it in e classrm b4 e lect!!!!! CRAP!!!!!
wei ee: no lah i saw u leave wiv ur racket.. got check properly anot? how can disappear liddat?!
me: oh mans NOOOO :'(

(jie xi slips away super stealthily...hiding something in frnt of her wiv super EXPERTISE..acting as innocent as me..BINGO! shes e criminal lahs! stupid me)

me walking at top spd towards her: JIE XI !!! NI GEI WO GUO LAI!!! (u better come here now)
jiexi: HAHAHA every1 got c how kan chiong she got?!!! LOLZ!!!!

(every1 starts exploding in peals of laughter)

me to wei ee : U BLUFF ME!!! BOOOOOOO
wei ee: HAHAHA dinno u so blur de
me: -_-"

sometimes, its great to hav a bunch of monkeys for frens ^^

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