Thursday, October 30, 2008
walking home together....
me: haha so funny.. they fenced up that growing shoot.
chang wei: so that
dogs wont go and
eat mah
me: (stares at chang) ...........
chang wei: what..... got vegetarian dogs de mah..
hehkz.
ure still the same chang wei i knew 6 yrs ago.
there's a fine line between innocence and stupidity. ure definitely not the latter :)
countdown: 3 days
every single possibility is flashing across my mind right now.
and mr ng's sms ytd was such a shocker. hehe
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Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Coming up to breatheI'm in way too deep again
I've forgotten how to swim
I can't tell which way is up or down
Save me before I drown down here
I just need some air
I'm coming up to breathe
Oh, I'm coming up to breathe
I've held my breath for all my life
But I am breaking free tonight
And I'm coming up to breathe
I just need to break these chains
I just need to leave this place
Before now this was all I knew
But with just one glimpse of You I see
You're the air I need
I've done everything I can
To get myself up on dry land
Lord, here I am again
Reaching for Your hand
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8:20 PM
how desperate?
as if you were coming up to breathe.
that analogy has been on my mind for a few weeks already,
mentioned again by BRX yesterday.
i dont want it to remain a mere analogy, but rather, a tangible reality, because God, You're the one who saw me without my mask, who knows my heart, who carries me in your thoughts as amanda, and not just another human being you fashioned out of boredom.
inhibitions abandoned, alas i surrender. do u hear that? the sound of broken shackles falling to the ground, as i realise that im no longer bothered abt outcomes, garnering fantastic results. i certainly wont laspe into depression if things dont turn out the way i want them to, coz He holds my future, my world in His hands.
thank you, God, for letting me go thru such a time as this, being with me each step of the way, teaching me, strengthening my character, flooding me with so many encouragements that this dam threatens to give way.
counting down, just 5 more days.
but i feel more alive than ever :)
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4:08 PM
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
matthew 11:28 triggered memories of this song.
sunday's d/s triggered memories of this song.
memories of the hiong promo period last yr, and how He helped me survive, triggered memories of this song.
to cut the chase, many many many things reminded me of this song :)
ANYWAY,
i have no idea why amabel likes to disturb amberly so much. hearing them screaming, running arnd the hse etc etc can drive you up the wall. ohh mehmoo, guess what? i heard amberly laughing in her sleep this morning. HAHAHA she and ur bro same kind man.. same kind !!
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11:20 AM
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
right now...
-its raining
-my brain is suffering from overload
-my table is horribly messy, FLOODED with notes, tys, 5ys, calculatorS, paper paper paper, file... oh man...
-shun's telling me abt his MUENSTER CHEESE. HAHAHAHAHAHA
-i have no idea what qns to ask mr chung for tmr's consultation
-im blabbering. i think i accidently fried my brain. ahhhhhhhhh
- shun just told me the cheese is ORANGE. ooooo......
tick. tock. tick. tock.
im counting the days.
18!!!! 18 MORE!!!!!
anw, i realised that i received SO MANY encouragement cards that i find it hard to fit them anywhere! not to forget the encouragements that came in the BIG forms of FOOD PACKAGES. how in the world am i gonna finish them?!?!!! shun, im gonna share with my sisters hor. at least fat also whole family fat together. i'd feel better :P
amberly asked me to watch CORPSE BRIDE with her later. she says its coz she finds it sian to watch alone. trust me. its coz shes SCARED. wahahhaaaa. kudos to mum. it must be funny to raise kids like amber. haha.
ever told you i love lisa?
nvm, hear it again.
I LOVE YOU LISA. ure the nicest chubby lawyer i know! :D
(actually ure e only lawyer i know lah.. haha but i meant the 'nice' and 'chubby' part! really! :D)
oh man. this is such a random post.
i promise to get a better social life after my As.
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Thursday, October 09, 2008
I'VE BEEN SOOOOO BLESSED THIS PAST FEW DAYS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
had loads of treats to various meals. all within the most financially dry 2 weeks. who else's doing can it be? haha :D
REALLY, REALLY, REALLY enjoyed myself ytd. so productive! i mugged AND had fun with some of my most favourite people whose company i really love. go read shun's blog for details... coz it doesnt make sense if we blog abt the same thing. hahaha. and shun, YUKIYAKI pictures will
NOT be posted. NEVER !!!! imagine if andyong grabbed hold of them. whoah. disastrous. super disastrous.
which reminds me.....
i cant find anymore unglam pics of andyong leh. his face is like.. so standard-ly stoned in every single picture lah! oh well. im glad i entertained him. (and some significant OTHERS too. grr)
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Monday, October 06, 2008
to you..
it's monday night.. you probably wont hear me say this in your face, if you get what i mean.. call it pride if you wish, but i just cant bring myself to let the ppl closest to me see this side. i wld nvr bawl in front of you guys (if i cld help it)..haha. so i pretend to be perfectly fine with it in front of you guys, even though everyone else knows its a pretense. this bond we shared was a risk im glad i invested in, coz i dont open up easily. but reality dictates that good times must end. thanks for e phonecall. it meant something. really. and ive told myself not to dwell upon it too much.. coz we can look fwd to d/s every single day in eternity. then i feel all better. and i hope you do too. love you guys. i really do :)
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Sunday, October 05, 2008
i told myself not to humiliate you, but ANDY ONG CHEE PENG, U FORCED ME TO. WAHAHAHA what can i say. revenge is SWEET. u EVIL EVIL EVIL EVIL!!!!! ure like, SO DEAD nxt sat. and i shall embark on a new mission to take even more unglam pics of you than i already have. (rmb how u looked like in p6? hmm? hmm?!?!!!! ) !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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11:22 AM
to 3nity:
even though my emotions didnt show in front of you 2 (personality didnt allow it), im sure you guys know exactly how i feel. monday nights left me with great memories, and yes, i did cherish each meet up. things are gonna be different, but some will remain unchanged, im sure. keep running :)
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Saturday, October 04, 2008
yuannshan:
HEY SUCKER I MISS US TOO :( read ur tagboard.. but in case you didnt, let me remind you again.
I BOOK YOU for MANY MANY MANY days ok. after my As that is... I DONT CARE! u MUST comply. you MUST!!! M-U-S-T!BECAUSE I REALLY MISS US TOO :'(
so ive officially graduated from college. shoot. i think im one of the few weirdos who's :( about it! not that i wld miss the intense stress & deprived sleeps, but ive grown to love these crazy peeps from school so much that it's hard to be nonchalant & totally unfeeling about it.
we better meet up after the As too.
BECAUSE I WOULD REALLY MISS US.
thanks 213. know what? you guys always made me feel like the younger sis - well taken care of, amidst the countless disturbs! ya la, sounds corny, i know xikueh will probably laugh at what i said or something, but i dun care! hoho
zi char treat ytd, seoul garden treat monday, die. we're gonna
grow. haha.. watch out kitty! dont wanna be the same weight now.... hurhur :P
and its exactly 31 days more.
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