Thursday, July 31, 2008
XI KUEH IS 18 !!!!
and she blows the candles
and she cuts the cake.
and she stabs her lan xi gua.
hur hur! 1st time i tried a tiramisu cake! ( yea, noob. i know)
also e 1st time we celebrated a bday with lan xi gua! hahaha :)
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JOY UNSPEAKABLE THAT WONT GO AWAY
I HAVE JUST ENOUGH STRENGTH TO LIVE FOR TODAY !!!!!
GAHH!!!!!!
UNSPEAKABLE JOY FILLS ME LIKE A RAGING FLOOD, AND I DUNNO WHY!!!! WAHAHAHA!!!
anyways,
i confess. the life of a jc student is very, very, VERY boring.
.... ok maybe its just me? ha!
my days have fallen into a routine leh!!!
wake up..eat..stone to school..stuudddyy..eat..SSSSSSSSSTTTTTTTTTUUUUUUUUUUUUUDDDDDDDDDDDDDDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY..stone home...ssssssttttttttuuuuudddddddyyyy..sleep.
on the flip side, study break finally finally begins nxt wk :D
(and then its hello prelims, here to stay for 3 whole wks. but, thks to jc, ive realised even more significantly than before, that TIME IS OH SO PRECIOUS LAH! & so is SLEEP !!!)
BUT!
i managed to squeeze SOME time for RUNS (i.e once a wk..at most 2?)!!!! :D arhahaha the weather's beautiful man! & i cant help but allow myself be drawn to the call of my running shoes, & the outdoors.
why? because..
running. is. therapeutic.seriously !!!!!
talking abt running.. i rmb a conversation btw wei & i a few days ago...HEHEHE
(at e sch gates.. the sun was happily blasting uv rays on the world. aka, it was ridiculously hot! my uniform was stuck to my back lah! we saw a man jogging...wearing A LONG SLEEVED SHIRT! yes! long sleeved leh!)me:
(thinking he's nuts) eh why he wear liddat seh ?!?!!!
wei: ya lor! so hot! ltr he
sai dao xiang zhu yi yang hei (burn until as black as a pig)!!!
me: (gives her my "huh?! u kidding?!" stare) ... ?!?!?!?!!?!!! ZHU VERY HEI MEH ?! (pigs very black?!) eh wait! and y u associate sunburn + ZHU ?!!!
(because, e 1st thing tt popped into my mind at e mention of chaotah pigs = chao tah rou gan. AND lz. HA!)wei: .. eh? YA HOR. AHAHAHAHAHA
me: AHAHAHAHAHA
us: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAASSSSSS
i conclude that chang wei has reached such extreme stages of stress, that she has lost all ability to appropriately associate stuff with their appropriate colours. hehehehe!
i know there ARE black pigs, but...definitely not used in this context lah... hahaha!!
thank you for making sch more laughable hehes. you and maine's blurness-es really brighten up these mugger-days :D
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Saturday, July 26, 2008
OH OHHH did i forget to mention abt MEOW, the carpark, and her FBT shorts story?!?!?!?!?!
HHHHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE =P
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character, character, character
" "Character is what you are in the dark when no one but God is watching," writes Randy Alcorn. "Anyone can look good in front of an audience, or even in front of their friends," he continues. "It's an entirely different thing to stand naked before God, to be known as you truly are on the inside." We don't define a person's true character by the image that person wishes to convey or the reputation he or she hides behind, but by the choices and decisions that person has made and makes each day. It takes real wisdom to observe a person's character. It also takes time. William Davis writes, "Your reputation is learned in an hour, you character does not come to light for a year" "
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I Kissed Dating Goodbye, Joshua Harrishow imperfect I am. I see the potter's hand at work =)
MEEKNESS has been God's message to me for the past week. as i told chubs, God really yearns to see me come to Him to exchange all my burdens, anxieties, die-die-must-succeed mentality, etc etc. for His strength. it sounds so unfair right?! yet He's soooo willing to do just that. I really need God to teach me meekness, so that i can live in & depend on His strength. sweet surrender to the Omnipotent one.
AND, i need to recognise that Satan's attacking fiercer than ever. he's a tricky one.. had me blinded and oblivious for SO LONG. ugh.
but today, the tables have turned.
its my turn to remind him of his future.
sweet surrender, total dependence. meekness.
i need to slow down, before my engines die on me.
i need to, before i crash and burn.
i
desperately need to refuel, before I continue on this journey, & among all the stations, His is the best pitstop.
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Tuesday, July 22, 2008
so today, we had this lil crash course on stress management. WAH. stress signals flashing bright red man!!!
4 categories: emotional, mental, behavoral, physical.
& apparently, im dangerously going MENTAL, hinging on physical too. uh oh.....
mental symptoms:
-self-criticism
-difficulty concentrating or making decisions
-forgetfulness or mental disorganization
-preoccupation with the future
-repetitive thoughts
-fear of failure
im like..experiencing
minor case of 5 outta 6 of those symptoms leh!
physical symptoms include being more susceptible to sickness + fatigue, etc etc.
yikes. better destress before all these escalate n i turn into a total nut case destined for the asylum.
oh.. n i think im gonna quit coffee.. because i gotta
"....avoid consuming too much
caffeine & sugar. In excess, the temporary "highs" they provide often end in fatigue of a "crash" later.."
& we're advised to "talk it out"..
uh uh.. tt aint gonna work. what good comes from a gang of stressed jc kias talking about how they feel right now, coz all u hear is the exact same thing going around?
sighs...apparently, ive still got A LOT to learn abt placing my life's schedule in His hands, AND LETTING IT GO. but its getting better =)
ok. 1st things 1st. from today on, i shall strive to sleep before midnight. yea!
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Monday, July 21, 2008
hmm just a random thought..
how many hearts have you broken today?
our actions, our words, every single thing that we do has got a potential to develop into something else, based on the receiver's "imagination". we gotta evaluate our actions & make sure, make very sure, that they've not crossed the border btw friendship, and more. you may think ure being perfectly friendly, but the other person may see sth else. ahhs tell me you know what i mean.
kindda sad to read abt ppl who express their utmost distress at being "played", when all there is to this is..perhaps.. just the highest stage of miscom ever reached.
yikes.
i dun wanna misunderstand anyone's goodwill, nor be misunderstood, for that matter.
oh no. my dreams recently are like..getting increasingly ridiculous!!!! im even dreaming up ppl i have nvr ever met before! the effect of..er.. i dunno.. too much homework? or tea? :s
& im finally finally resorting to coffee. tea isnt effective. oh no oh no. i rmb telling myself in sec sch tt i will nvr ever resort to coffee in college, just to prove elders wrong when they predicted that i'll take to the drug somewhere along my college life, like they did. ggaaahhh!! but i dun care anymore! that resolution shall have to be chucked aside, coz im soo sick of yawning till my tear ducts run dry! oh no oh no!
& i love my dad.
& i thank God super super for maximising my time over the weekends. despite my burnt wkends due to various stuff going on. :D
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Tuesday, July 15, 2008
beautiful!!!!
anyway, finally have some time to spare so here i am!
some stuff that happened last wk, which i didnt have e luxury of time to blog about...
introducing, the bball pro. (her skills & height are inversely proportionate ok! dun play play!)
& with that, my very very very VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY LAST pe session. EVER !!! (unless i find myself repeating this year... which is an option i really really do not want to even have to consider)
SAD LAH !!!!! no more running with ur classmates, doing drills/strengthening/ playing bball / captain'sball/ frisbee/ volleyball/ thai kickbox/ kungfu/ getting injured together ETC ETC EVERY AGAIN!!! im so gonna miss, so gonna miss so gonna miss. :'(
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oh.. & during 1 of the bio lects, i learnt about this ENZYME. no prizes for guessing that it's called ADA! HAHAHAHAHA
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"...adenosine deaminase (ADA) helps cells to get rid of toxic byproducts. Without ADA, poisons build up & kill the lymphocytes..."
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basically,in laymen's terms, without ADA, ur health will become very jialat lahs..hehehe (seeee!!! all u people NEED me! ahahaha)
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anyways, thick skin-ness aside, this thingy got me thinking again..
every single one of us in the Body of Christ are important. indispensable, even. the ADA gene is small, yet its sooooooooo impt to the body.
You may be feeling insignificant, but u have no idea how much u actually matter to this Body.
anyways anyways,
pls pls pls kp me in prayer, all you prayer warriors out there, coz i really really really nd strength. really really..
i cant rmb e last time i concussed / knocked out cold IN CLASS and DURING LESSONS, because today's the first!
do you know how embarrassing it is to have ur teacher knocking on ur desk, yet hearing NO RESPONSE until he calls you?!
and then, ur friend starts taking e opportunity to pile all sorts of stuff over ur sleepyhead. haha.
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Sunday, July 13, 2008
Desert SongThis is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides
This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand
All of my life, in every season
you are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
This seed I've received I will sow
you know how i like to highlight the portions of songs that speak to me?
in this case, i cant, coz i would have to highlight the entire song!
God, if You can use a donkey, You can surely use me.
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even when the end still cant be seen, no matter how much i wanna see it, no matter how much effort pumped in, no matter how desperate i am, how much i question, there's a time for everything. triumph is STILL on its way.
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His thoughts are still higher than my thoughts,
His ways still higher than mine.
the dream's still withheld, but that's that. so be it. that's to be FULLY revealed, in His time.
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indeed, why should i feel discouraged, when His grace carries me thru life's raging floods? when He assures thru so many people, thru His word, thru His voice that im not alone ??
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yay i had an awesome, awesome weekend :D
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im not afraid of what i don't know
coz God you hold my future, beginning and the end you are.
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Thursday, July 10, 2008
very discouraged
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Monday, July 07, 2008
the sight that greets me every morning as i wait for the bus,that never fails to catch my breath.
people ive come to love & appreciate even more :)
unoe.. i dun think i wld ever regret coming to jc, what with the stress and all.
i really dun.
on the contrary, i feel like ive gained much more than i bargained for, and im really thankful for that. so, no matter the results, im cool.
words words words.
beautiful.
one of my stronger love languages yet. both on the giving and receiving end.
God has really blessed me the past week with the MANY encouragement cards, the earliest birthday gifts i ever received (THANKS 213 I LOVE THE PRESENTs! =D ), and for placing wonderful, wonderful people around me, amidst the hectic schedules that totally messed up my bio-clock, sprinkled pimples all over, intensified my panda eyes and sadly, unrooted many many strands of hair too.
thank God, for being so timely as always, & lavishing his goodness 24/7, because i really, really needed it :D
and im off again, to chiong my SGC. due tmr. and i realised i havnt gotten it endorsed yet !!! because i stupidly thought i could get it done today, because i
stupidly forgot that
today's a holiday. HOLIDAY LEH! HOW COULD I ACTUALLY FORGET LAHH !!!!!
*stones self*
(ahh yes yes, i can just hear lz ranting about the "local blonde" thingy. cant believe he's still at it!)
happy youth day everyone!
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and she blows the candles 
and she cuts the cake.
and she stabs her lan xi gua.
the sight that greets me every morning as i wait for the bus,that never fails to catch my breath.
hope.