Friday, March 30, 2007

NAUSEA x2 !!
went to sch coz i felt normal tis morning
budden wat happened?!
i felt like vomitting after 1st period, which happened to b pe

pe was so retarded!
she made me walk arnd e track 2 times on lane 8
-.-"

aniways
went home after tt..
straight to e toilet bowl

n tts how i started my vomitting bout
horrible man!
every few minutes den vomit again
4 hrs lah!

felt e temptation of e devil for me to blame God
hohoho so glad i din^^

all i need is you Lord, is you Lord,
all i need is you

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Thursday, March 29, 2007

SICK!
so here i am, stuck at home..
arrgghhh i hate it..
missing so many impt lessons today
but if i go to sch, confirm cmi
ahhs...

cld it be dengue?
symptoms are similar

on a positive note, at least i can chiong all my essays which are due tmr

-_-"

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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

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Another Letter from satan

Dear GOD,
i know You are powerful.
actually You are ALL-POWERFUL.

but i know too,
Your children are ignorant of Your power in them.
i shall make them doubt Your power,
and Your love, everytime i can.

because i know once they doubt You,
and rely on their own stupid ways,
react to their emotions and anger,
i can mislead them, and destroy their lives.

i know too, THE ALMIGHTY, that You will win one day.

but until the day comes when You throw me into Sheol,
i will steal Your children away from You.
because i know they are Your beloved.

i will distract them from spending time with You.
i will block their ears and eyes to see You, by tempting them.
i will make them behave like animals,
seeking sex and false love everywhere,

i will make them rebellious towards their families and teachers,
cursing their parents and teachers with insults and vulgarities,

i will cause them to hate themselves and be angst-ridden,
cutting themselves and piercing their bodies in self-multilation,

i will teach them to be selfish and plot to destroy one another,
hating their own brothers and sisters in Christ,

i will whisper and tell them to be fake and live a mediocre walk,
so that their families and friends will see that,
Christians are losers who don't do what they preach,

i will teach them how to act and be religious like the pharisees,
practicing the religious christian walk and play church,
only to warm the church pews weekly,

i will encourage them that it's okay to sin,
and live a fake Christian walk,
because no one sees and no one knows,

i will entice them to love themselves more than You,
and they will be so absorbed and blinded by their self-centredness,
to even notice that You are calling out to them,

i will lie to them that You don't love them,
and tell them they are useless and will amount to nothing,

i will do EVERYTHING and ANYTHING,

to cause them to fall into filthy sin.
then i will send my helpers to torment them day and night,
until they are totally defeated and eventually self destruct.
i will not cease to stop doing these until You come.

as for those STRONG DISCIPLES OF YOURS,
everywhere in the world,
i will speak fear into them,
so that they will shut their golden mouths,
that they might not speak truth,
nor shed light in their friends' lives.

i will pray with my helpers for them to fall,
for their testimonies of Your Glory to become
null and void by causing them to fall below thestandards You have set for them.

see, those dumb christians.
they were strong.
they appeared strong.
but they are not.

now i have made THOUSANDS of them weak and mediocre.
see how those christians lie.
see how they drink and make merry.
see how they smoke.see how they DENY YOUR NAME.
see how they speak of vulgarities in front of Your creation.
see how they follow me.

and while i cant stop them from advancing the Heavenly Kingdom,
i will make my mark to establish a world of sin,
and hatred towards You and Your Creations.

You made them, and You love them.

but i hate them.
and i want them with me in hell.
one thing i fear most, God,
honestly (and even my fallen angels know),
is the Cross and Blood of Christ;
and Your righteous children who yearn all day
to know You and to establish Your Kingdom.

everytime Your righteous children speak of His Name,
my helpers RUN AND RUN....
and all my plans come crashing.

but wait and see,
and i will cause the whole world to turn against them, God.
and we will see who are those who are truly loyal and faithful to You.

Yours truly, the most beautiful angel, Lucifer.

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Monday, March 26, 2007

i do not think highly of ppl hu look dwn on my sch
so what if u managed to stay in aj?
dun look dwn on my intelligence ok

im not being paranoid, if tts wat ure thinking
sometimes ppl send messages out super clearly
n tis is 1 of those times

yea sure..go ahead n laugh
complacency is deadly
i suppose ure intending to b its nxt victim

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Friday, March 23, 2007

CAUTION YJ-CIANS!
SCARY ECONS RELIEF TEACHER ON THE LOOSE
HE COMES INTO YOUR CLASS,
PRETENDING TO TEACH
BUT HE ALWAYS
i stress e word ALWAYS,
PICKS ON LADIES TO ANSWER HIS "QUESTIONS"

then he crowds over dem n starts his intimidation
"I WANTED U TO ANS WAT E FACTORS WHICH CAUSED TIS LVL LOF DEMAND ARE! not wat u gave me"
i stress again, he EXPECTS U TO KNOW e ans
i stress 1ce more on e fact tt its only e 5th day of sch
-_-"

basically our class doesnt like tis guy for forcing my fren hu has stage-fright to present some stuff

he dun want guy volunteers
but dun mind girls
so shi wei n e rest came up wiv a theory tt he's a pervert

im guessing its e transparent uniform
coz he only picked those wearing uni
thank God he's only a relief
pHeW

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Thursday, March 22, 2007

to friend y:
wats wrong wiv u
y do u do such things to urself
dun u rmb? Jesus has already saved u
dun u rmb?
our God is a God hu saves
we call Him our personal Lord n SAVIOUR
y?
wat on earth cld possibly cause u so much misery when uve got HIM?
all for tt person..u tot it was gonna last foreva?
but HIS love for u is so much diff
let it go

u say u pity her
i wanted to tell u, i pity u more
pity she's not talking to u coz she thinks wat ure doing to urself is ridiculously stupid
pity u 4got HIM
pity ure giving up
pity ure choosing not to listen
pity u gotta resort to mutilation
pity u can let go of ur hate n hurt

u wear e cross on ur neck
such irony
dun u know u canT choose both?
its either HIM or ur scars
pick 1

its not a competition btn hu's e more devoted 1
u dun c such stuff tt way
its abt growing in HIM tgt

u may ask y e heck i "preach" to u
its simply coz ure still my fren
WAKE UP

juz cldnt stop e tears
when i saw ws' friend's pic at her blog
yes, e 1 we've all been prayin 4..
she looked exactly as e vision

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Sunday, March 18, 2007

what can i say...shes a violent girl

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awesome time ytd

during sharing..
jean wanted me to give a testimonial
so okayz i did...
amazingly i wasnt feeling nervous while speaking when i normally wld..
thank God for that
BUT my mind went completely blank
there was more to my testi but i cldnt recall dem all of a sudden
hmmss...also sensed some hu din really understand

so nvm nvm...during our eg session,
was asked to pray
pray pray pray..DEN! i spaced out AGAIN!
argghhh dunno wats wrong wiv me
in e middle of e prayer summore lahs!
in my head i was gg "arrhhss i dunno liao"
tt tot din stay in my head, it came outta my mouth too
IN E MIDDLE of prayer
AHHHHHSSS crap! i felt like slapping myself

God spoke to me thru so many ppl ytd
during EG, thru yanni, jean, pd

as many noe by now,
i get discouraged very easily
so when pd talked abt us being able to giv victory over it
i was =O

during qt back at home...was juz thinking abt e day's happenings
den He told me "juz capturin e essence of me is enuf"
ohs...

so tts y i kept spacing out
now i understand

yeahs...
my God is an awesome God

we're gonna lift our voice in victory

we're gonna make ur praises loud

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Thursday, March 15, 2007

hais so irritating
wanted to change my blog song

but RADIOBLOGCLUB UNDER MAINTAINENCE!
hmpphhss
*grumbles*

went to jia yan & hil's hse wiv grace ytd
i m in love wiv hil's dog!!

*christians*
when was e last time u sang a song to Jesus, meaning it wiv all ur heart?
when was e last time u yearned for Jesus so much, it made u weep?
when was e last time u obeyed?
when was e last time u tried to hear Him?

show me your heart,
show me your way
show me your glory
-fire fall down-

my heart questions...
Lord, so many things are happening now..
inoe its for something gd
but..

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Wednesday, March 14, 2007

hahas tis pic cracks me up..shes so like a teacher!

HAHA

oh maths oh maths

y do u hate me so

wat hav i done to make u wanna cause me so much misery?!

ur mysterious ways make me so frustrated

wats wiv all the As,Rs,Ds,Xs,Ys,Zs ?!?!?!!?!?!?

ur sequences make me dizzy

apgp,binomial,functions

HUH

i tot we got it gg on in sec sch

y u suddenly turn into monster e mmt i enter jc?!

Y! YYY?!?!?!!

ure driving me nuts

ure such a tough nut to crack

i cant believe i juz "talked" to a subject

y did u do tt to urself?

dun u noe doing it not only hurts urself, it hurts all those arnd u

its not funny
nth is impossible to solve with God
u cld hav talked it over wiv any of us
haiz..pls pls promise us u wun do it again
we're concerned coz we care

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Monday, March 12, 2007

during qt last night, God showed me sumthing
i was juz telling God how discouraged n helpless i felt abt X
he showed me kairi
kairi was reading her bible..looking contented...
me being curious went to look at wat she was reading..
all i saw was tis -->pg 641

me back to reality, flipped my bible
[ezekiel 28:20-26]

thank u 4 ur encouragement Dad'

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Monday, March 05, 2007

went to sentosa today wiv 12/07...
i meant 1/2 of 12/07..
n now im as red as a tomato..but nvm..as pei pei says..red den cute
i shall believe tt
pei pei is now known as ostrich/penguin...coz she dunno how to walk wiv slippers
ahahakz
u worm eater

cant organise my tots properly today hmms...

im so easily discouraged...
i really dun like rejection
invite den kena reject..
u ask again dey ask u to stop asking
its so...hais

i am nervous..
i seriously doubt i hav e ability to pass e audition AND interviews..
so stringent....
wat abt my hectic schedule coz of sch??
will i even hav e time for tis?

but all e signs are confirmation enuf...
im amazed even after 2 mths, He still continues to gimme confirmation
with Him, all things are possible..
i muz prioritise
i muz persevere
i muz lift all my worries up to him
things will only go haywire if i DIY
thank God for my "manager"
thank God for not giving up on me

but wat if i giv up on him 1ce again?

the greatest love tt anyone cld ever know
overcame the cross n grave to find my soul
-till i see u-

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Sunday, March 04, 2007

lets not pray for e persecution to stop=)
its an honour to be fools for christ
let us pray for our fire to be reignited
for our 1st love to b regained
for our fellow bros n sis hu r slipping away

i c my past self in her
n it strikes me how He has totally changed my situation arnd
how much i hav grown
hmmss....

took a step of faith ytd in signing up
ive been runnin away for e past few mths
i din think i cld do it
so i prayed
hehkz God is with me

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Thursday, March 01, 2007

I got tagged by ms YANEH

Rule of the game:
Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own 10 weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!

1. im an introvert 70% of e time

2.i am very random

3. i simply love singing, but i nvr sing at home. NEVER

4. its hard 4 me to get attracted to guys, but I AM STRAIGHT

5. i love reading, but ppl dunno tt coz dey dun c me read. i dun tell dem coz most look at me as tho i were possesed if dey knew sum1 actually reads

6. i like talking to myself in my head. dun get me wrong okayz..im sane

7. i love eating. no i dun hav an eating disorder

8. i wanna learn to play other instruments eg. e guitar and drum

9. I do not really believe that I will get e chance to do so

10. i freak out if i cant feel His presence. LITERALLY!

now to tag other people. the harder part since I do not think any1 will bother doing tis:
wei ee
hazel
wei shun
qiddie
pei pei
ahjoex

ps. no.11) sumtimes i juz hate having to think

hav fun=D

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arhs tis is "+"vely devastating
i sprained my finger while playing volleyball
inoe..wat e crap right?
ahhhhh
tis means i gotta call off our swimmin sessions lah!
i dun wan :'(
now i gotta sms wiv my left hand instead
coz my right hand is like....vertically divided into 1/2:
->left half is "paralysed"
->right half is normal

i improved for maths!!!!
upgraded le... frm a 4 to a 9.5
hohoho
ANDY QUEK im so not gonna miss you

ba chor mee

mee siam mai ham

LOLZ

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