Saturday, September 29, 2007

me.jiayan.grace AKA BAO. HEEE im so glad my eyes are visible.

FRYING JIKEN WINGSSSS....AHAHAHAKZ XD

im gonna pray 4 a breakthru.

in you, in you, in you

& in me.

*coughs away...*

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Tuesday, September 25, 2007

i think my CT has PMS. tsktsktsk. its irritating. hahakz

my qt on sunday was similar to curry's on that same day
i dun think it was coincidence..
sunday is always special to me :)

luke 15:1-7. The parable of the lost sheep

He is daddy God.if a sinner repents, the rejoicing in heaven will be so,so great. God will go after tt single lost sheep, nvr giving up until He finds it. When He does find it, he doesnt zap it to ashes or curse it or whatnot. He brings it home on His shoulders wiv joy. indeed, He's daddy God.

Luke 19:10
"For the son of man came to seek n save wat was lost."

tt's His aim.His goal.His priority. to find & save the lost.

frm my point of view, its also a qn of whether those sheep wanna be found.

ohs... HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPAYA + JAS !!!!
study hard for promos yea?!

PAPAYA! we better get promoted.

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Friday, September 21, 2007

i dun like standing beside smart ppl. they make me feel so inferior :s
on e bus to sch this morning, tis rj guy stood beside me..
can picture lahs... typical rj-cian
posh, smart, most prob rich, looks like some doctor..

anw, anw,

today was eventful. hahakz
due to chionging pw, every1 except maine + my grp did not slp e entire night...
i thank God super super that my grp wrapped up everything early..

today? 1/4 of e class ponned..
initially, 2 turned up for pe.. HAHA
of coz, due to threats frm e tcher, every1 else trudged dwn to e quadrangle..

1 cockroach 2 cockroaches 3 cockroaches 4,
5 cockroaches 6 cockroaches 7 cockroaches more.

TONS of dead cockroaches lay on e ground all e way frm yanni's blk to e mrt stn.
its today tt i found out,
actually shelby can do high jump de
wei ee can sprint quite well
kitty shrieks as well as grace+yanni!
not forgetting chingay + dog + monkey.. they're real good at laughing at girls.
WOW... hidden talents. HAHAHAHA

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Thursday, September 20, 2007

ytd, mum came to my room e mmt she stepped home frm work..
holding an official-looking letter in her hand, & a solemn cum worried face..

mum: for u.. open n see wat it's abt

i look at e letter.. its some medical thingy..and i see that it was half opened by mum

mum: wat issit abt?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!

i read e contents..its juz to tell me that i donated my blood once.. RMB THE FAINTING INCIDENT?

me: (with a solemn face) they say i kena blood cancer.

mum: HAR! :O

ok i dunno wat made me say that. sorry to anyone passing by who happens to have blood cancer. i noe, it isnt funny, but i really dunno wat made me say that!

as we all know, amanda yeo juz cant lie.
my eyes give me away, even though they're small.
oh..n my am chio also nvr fails to betray me. ahahakz

mum: *WHACK* BU HAO XIAO LAH! (not funny lah!)

me: *OUCH*!

hehkz i love my mum

to joanna: ure not e only tutor hu is fed-up with amabel for her laziness n qianda-ness. hee

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Monday, September 17, 2007

ALL PRAISES TO HIM!!!!!!
hohohho so darn happy
i PASSED my MINI chem quiz...hohohoho
its a MIRACLE lahs!

50% LEHS!! on the dot!!
not too much not too little. but definately more than i cld produce based on my own abilities.
y is passing a SMALL lil quiz a miracle?

i cried while studying ytd coz :
1) NOTHING was going into my head, even tho i started memorising my chem reactions n conditions 2.5 DAYS AGO.
2) which led me to harp on this seemingly hopeless possibility of getting promoted. e criteria for getting promoted here is so hard ..
3) felt bad.. i told God i will trust in His plans le, but fear still crept in eventually, n there i was crying.

then i heard Him

"Stop crying. Ask me for wisdom. Put ur confidence in me.

What can man do to you??"

He gave me a verse: Psalm 116:6

"The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid.

What can man do to me?"

at first, i blur diao.
promos ≠ man lehs...
its a RESULT! non-living!

den i understood.
what can man do to me?
Nothing, for He's with me.
no matter what happens, no matter what, i'll be ok.
why? for He's with me.

& i smiled :D

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Sunday, September 16, 2007

Lead me to the Cross
Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemptions hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom

Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of my self
I belong to You
Oh lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and tried
Human
The word became flesh
Bore my sin in death
Now you're risen

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart

my heart's cry

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Saturday, September 15, 2007

I read this book called " Treasures in Jars of Clay" at fareast while collecting grace's shirt wiv yanni..i forgot e author's name :s
nevertheless, here's a little of wat it says:

The Potter allows disappointment to cleanse us frm all our deceptive illusions.
He allows dreams to fail to bring us back to reality.
We, as fragile vessels should accept the Potter's perfect plan for us.
He allows others to hurt us, so our TRUST will be put in Him.
so, leave your dealings of failure behind
& come home to the Potter's house.

Have you become an empty jar?

Psalm 118:8-9
"It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in man. It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in princes"

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Sunday, September 09, 2007

y do we work hard?
not to prove ath..
not to prove we're smart, not to prove we're capable, not to prove teachers wrong etc etc.

its to glorify Him with wateva results we receive,
if we worked hard for it, He sees & will reward.
we place our confidence in Him for this reason. no other

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Vietnam

i dreamt abt being in vietnam!!! hahakz a sign??

nah.....

vietnam doesnt hav hdb blocks tt look EXACTLY like yishun

or does it?

when pd spoke abt facing our failures ytd

immediately, i thought abt school.

in my mind, FAIL = SCHOOL

its so depressing

imagine failing almost every single test given to u this yr.

imagine e FEAR at e thought of getting retained.

who wants to repeat a yr? getting retained is common, but who wants it?

ive no idea how many times ive been exasperated at my stupidity.

so when pd spoke abt peter,

i put myself in peter's shoes, n inoe..

my God loves me, im not stupid.

even if i get retained, its in accordance wiv His plan.

on a lighter note,

mum cooked maggi mee for me last night

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Thursday, September 06, 2007

The Spirit now living and dwelling within me
Keep my eyes fixed ever on Jesus' face
Let not the things of this world ever sway me
I'll run 'till I finish the race
-Lord of Lords-

tis wk was full of surpises.. or rather, "surprises"..
discouraging moments especially, flooded my otherwise dull week.
perhaps e mugging is getting to me? hahakz

all e trials tt were thrown at me tis wk..phew..
im so thankful for my frens.

thks 3nity n cell,
thks 113.
most importantly, thks to HIM

even if u guys dunno it, every little action posed as a huge encouragement to me.
i can juz imagine the 'me' years ago..
if i din hav Jesus, i wld emo my month away.
yea. ur eyes werent playing tricks on u.. my MONTH. hahakz in case u guys havn noticed, i used to emo super easily.
my emo-ness now is a marked improvement as compared to e past :)

to my dearest classmates right now who are furiously mugging for promos,

DON'T WORRY!

God spoke to me when i was flipping thru my prev sermon notes... tis came clear:

release the regrets of ytd,

refuse the fears of tomorrow &

receive, instead, the peace of today

i'll cast all my cares on Him, for inoe He cares for me.

over worrying will do much more harm than good.

4 wks to promos and counting.

DUN GIVE UP NOW GUYS!!

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Wednesday, September 05, 2007

wake up lah
so u think by doing all this, things will turn out better?
so u think ure in control? more dua pai than God?
for example, u think God will help u if u dun put in effort to study for ur exams?
another example, u think God will say yes to EVERYTHING u ask tts obviously not gd for u?

yea, perhaps ure right.
we DO pity u.
look at ur plight now.
ppl want to help den u still reject them.
its ur choice man. u wanna die or u wanna live. up to u.
if u think tts e only way to figure out ur worth, fine.
none of my business.

i dun care if u think im writing abt u
ya ya u'll feel hurt n everything.
but im so sick n tired of juz standing by, worrying for nth becoz ure not putting in any effort to save urself.
wanna come argue wiv me abt tis?
wanna go on hating every single person hu in ur eyes alone is doing wrong?

by all means, go ahead. u'd juz hav lost another fren.

my feelings can b considered quite indifferent for now
no matter how much persuasion, it wouldnt matter would it?
tts y i stopped. all i did was pray for u.
if u get angry coz of tis, its coz u dun understand.
u nvr tried digging deep.

maybe i was wrong, maybe u DID think things twice.
but theres no diff is there? ure thinking is e same as it was months ago.

good luck man

im not being a hypocrite.
its honest enuf for me.
but dun get me wrong.
i still do care.

if u think i dun, it juz goes to prove my point. u dun understand.

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Tuesday, September 04, 2007

ya ya i got attitude problem.
win liao lor
only know how to see e bad side of me.
come home only den start to nag n nag.

my face jiu shi na me dao. wat u wan me do?
plastic surgery arhs?
crazy.
i cant recognise ur frens so i din greet dem.
den u come n tell me u guys think im hao lian, like ppl owe me $10 000 000 liddat.
fine lah
crazy ppl

win liao lor

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heeeeee

love u guys ^^

promos are around e corner...

yet here i am, wiv 1 entire pile of work i cant understand..

unoe what?! i juz found out not long ago tt yj's passing mark is higher than A lvl standard.

alamak...

is there a chance for me to be promoted??

i study, but i juz cant apply wat i learnt to e qns.

study until wanna peng oso cmi.

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Sunday, September 02, 2007

beautiful.

i dun wanna be a procrastinator.

this hol, its gonna be hard.

then again,

since when hasnt that been the case?

In the midst of a world lost for love

You are all we have now

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