Friday, March 27, 2009
the sun's magnificent this morn
i think the toilet aunty's very cute (even though she's extremely eccentric). just imagine, she bears a stark resemblance to Edna from The Incredibles. haha.
though it's not uncommon to see others staring at her like she had 3 eyes, and i wished they'd cut her some slack. She's just being herself, like eveyone else tries to be.
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right now...
im missing my Mr Bumpy cushion :S
how can you long for a mere cushion this much! oh goodness. i feel like a kid again. i miss hugging it leh. im picturing it sitting on my office chair, waiting for me to hug it again tmr. hai. such a forlorn sight :S
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1:16 AM
what do you make of apathy? burnt bread?
do you not care that u dont care about things that matter at all?
sometimes, you feel like a mimosa, shying away because of unintentional insensitives.
sometimes, you feel like a mime artist, going on and on without voicing out how you really feel, while u let others verbalise your emotions based on their own guesses. you don't even bother correcting them
sometimes, you just feel patronised, as if you were the grass on some renowned soccer team's playing field, there for every player's muddy boots to tread on. taking whatever comes, not even considering retaliation
and sometimes you simply feel vulnerable, as if you were a daisy braving a hurricane, as if you were an unarmed soldier sent to the frontline, as if you were an egg being balanced on the nose of a 4 year old.
then you become a clam, clamming up to protect your treasure, your heart, from anything that seems dangerous. from muddy boots, from wind and rain, bloody pointed daggers, falls and shame.
but even clams, oysters have value. divers swim deep just to retrieve them from the cold waters. no matter how deep their treasure's been carved into their core, they'll still be coaxed out. Then, wouldn't it be cool, if your treasure's displayed for all to admire its beauty?
was telling a friend that i've been highly irascible lately. it's not a moodswing though.. its situational. Apparently, we're on the same boat. cool. i felt better, just knowing that im not the only 1 panicking aboard the rocking boat.
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Tuesday, March 24, 2009
how do you disengage from obligations, disentangle urself from duty. mundanes and responsibilities that don't make sense, but which ure required to fulfil anyway, coz the whole of ur society says so. how do you break free from taboos that contradict your belief. how do you keep out comparisons, yet retain gratitude. how do you capture negative thoughts/emotions, yet be sure that you're not merely a coward running away. how do you be the nice guy, and not let others step all over you. how do you deal with insensitivities with a smile, yet not be a hypocrite. how can you love control, and love a person simultaneously. how do you love someone when pride keeps getting in the way. how do you believe in miracles, yet fear you'll die. how do you know hurt's on the way, yet be able to choose to love.
you arnt strong just because you don't cry
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3:40 PM
breather.
was chatting with my long lost sec sch math tutor (yes, i had maths tution. why? cos i flunked maths in sec 1. yes. no typo. sec 1. rmb, yanni? ahhhahaha)
ive always thought she was 1 cool woman of God who happens to be a tutor. heh. n i realised, she's still very much the same!
i feel like i'm the one who has been going thru so much change. Especially perspectives. how mine have morphed. guess time stills when you're in ur thirties? where the world seems to be the one changing instd?
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Monday, March 23, 2009
5-liner:
ahaha wireless is finally up in e hospital!! AHAHAHAHAHA
was offered coffee this morning. Apparantly i get high upon drinking it. so i officially found another get-high source, on top of ice cream & choco
i havent applied for uni yet
i like my Mr Bumpy cushion more and more each day. It fits perfectly in my embrace
This is so wrong. I shouldnt be blogging NOW
HEE
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1:15 PM
Saturday, March 14, 2009
hey you.
as always, proud of ya.
you look around,
you collapse that zillion times,
you lift those hands of yours,
you give him those praises,
you hang on to Him,
you go on loving his grace,
you WILL live through this.
you dont havta promise, I know you WILL.
cos y'know, u aint doing this alone. heck the negativities/blatant reality, heck the ones who walk away, heck the ones you write off. heck the guilt. you aint alone. you hear me?
I'll be a phonecall away, just a couple of busrides, I'll walk if I have to. sit, talk, cry, whatev.
whatever's to come,
I'll go on loving you anyway :)
proud, P-R-O-U-D of you babe.
don't lose love, don't shut it out frm your heart, k?
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12:07 AM
Friday, March 13, 2009
JOANNA TAN CAI LEING,
i'd like to see you wrap urself up, don a baseball cap, baggy tee and shorts like some american, yo. haha stupid.
AND
I KNOW u'll be in a good mood all the way until you get accepted into whichever course u want lor, so just MEET ME lah huh. bring enough cash ok. Lets go to some ATAS place of your choice! (see, im letting you bring me to anywhere YOU wanna treat ME. dun say i bully. wahahhaa)
hai.
you'd better have had fun / bought me smth frm the IT fair. that's the only fair exchange :(
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11:42 PM
laughing till you cry and ur jaws ache. that's perhaps the ultimatum. haha!
it's with y'all, that i feel 13 and stupid again. dressings change, looks, preferences, mentalities change, but apparently, not the heart.
i love you sixers!
you guys are crazy :D
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11:00 PM
Thursday, March 12, 2009
:(
times like this make you wish you were male for like... at least 1 hour.
much as i LOVE running alone at night, guess i'd better stop. irritatingly restricted because
a) my "comfort-paths" aka happy routes, become too remote once the sky darkens, and i retreat to less enjoyable routes.
b) you hardly see any female joggers or briskwalkers
c) everywhere i turn in my area, i see bgls (thanks arh jereblossom. hah), and they see me, hence, i feel propelled by uneasiness, perhaps, a slight degree of paranoia, until i reach central.
d) then there's the issue of possibly tripping over tree roots and gravel(which thankfully DID NOT happen), or
e) intruding on lovers, which is a bummer.
f) and when you head back home, point(or problem) C is an issue again.
BUT
i love the night! cant help it!
a) HELLO, THE MOON TONIGHT'S SOOOOOOOOOOO WOW (moonlight sonata played in my head ahaha)
b) stars. need i elaborate :D
c) it smells good. i dont care. it does!
d) it sounds comforting. YES. something about crickets' and toads' cacophony of... noise(?), which brings assurance, and it's heartwarming
e) and when you see families taking after-dinner strolls, :)
f) I never fail to be reminded of Perak, cowshit, leeches and cold rivers. like YEAH!
g) Naturally, thinking of perak brings on memories of ophir & taman :D
h) no crazy dogs. THE CRAZY NINE would be off somewhere sleeping and gaining energy to chase some other poor lone jogger tmr afternoon.
SO,
NEO YUANN SHAN, YOU OWE ME, for not checking ur phone!
and SINDHU SASHA ACHUDAN, GET BACK HERE! no to taiwan! :(
(but hope ure having fun! anything for OBS overseas!)
twins, feel free to shift back to Seletaris
papaya, you used to live 2 blocks away!
....
ok.... enough bimbo talk. shoot. apparently, this is what night runs do to me
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9:33 PM
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Learning to Breathe - Switchfoot
Hello, good morning, how ya do?
What makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new
So this is the way that I say I need You
This is the way
This is the way
That I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies
Hello, good morning, how ya been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never, never thought I would fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad
I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies
So this is the way that I say I need You
This is the way that I say I love You
This is the way that I say I'm Yours
This is the way
This is the way
I've always loved this song
I love how it's a declaration of one's desperation
I love how it's the laying aside of one's pride, one's mask, to just BE vulnerable, and to let go, let God.
I love how it talks about fresh beginnings, about embracing mistakes, embracing life's hurts, about restoration and starting over, about overcoming victorious.
I'm just so overwhelmed, every single day, when i see His beauty at the break of dawn, at every breathe of cool air, every sunrise, every squirrel in the "canopies", each dewdrop, pink sky, marshmallow cloud, damp grass, all amidst the HDBs, roads, and shoves from the morning crowd.
and man, was today's sunrise pretty.. :)
uh oh.. i checked..there's a v high chance i wont be able to get into FASS with the grades i have.... hur hur...
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Friday, March 06, 2009
God,
grant me the serenity to accept what I can't change,
the courage to change what I can,
and the wisdom to tell the difference between the two.
thanks for caring, guys :)
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Thursday, March 05, 2009
THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN ANG MOHS AND ASIANS
(based on my noob-observations every morning while waiting for the irritating shuttle bus to work at dover everyday)
1. ang moh guys let their wives drive! their asian counterparts DIT (do it themselves)
2. ang mohs wind down the window for their HUMUNGOUS HOUNDS. i mean dogs. asians put their doggies in their bicycle baskets :(
3. ang mohs kiss their wives and smile before closing the car door. asians just leave.
4. ang mohs open up the back door of cars to kiss their kids, hug them, give their boys high 5s and punches, pecks the cheeks of their girls... asians? they just leave (look above)
5. ang mohs look back at the car after leaving. asians er... dont. they jus leave (again)!
sad huh. oh well....
i always thought it impt to start the day right. It's nice when you see others doing just that.
people-watching makes me smile :)
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