Tuesday, July 31, 2007

din feel ath
e pieces juz din fall in place like i tot they wld
its heartbreaking to hear such comments...
simply goes to show tt u juz dun understand me enuf
maybe its abit too unrealistic to expect u to,
but having been friends for that long..... i did expect u to know im not tt kindda person u said i was.
it felt so weird to me, juz wanted to get out asap

every1 thinks, "sure, yea every1s getting along better.. awesome! im feeling it mans."
hmms...i havnt been able to agree wiv tt frm e very beginning...
juz din say ath coz every1 else thought likewise
i dunno, but i seem to b able to pinpoint a few hu arnt "feeling it"..
i cant believe im saying tis, but its so superficial....

hu knows, mayb sum1 else is thinking e exact same thing as me..

then again, today's post is so abstract, i highly doubt any1 wld understand it..

we're all too diff, arnt we?

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Sunday, July 29, 2007

was doing abit of thinking...
e past wk has affected my walk wiv God
countless happenings tt made my temper shoot up by 1 deg/s..
when im pissed, i tried
not to go arnd shooting every1 i see, but its hard..
sometimes i wld b on e verge of swearing, but i tahan n tahan n tahan..

im afraid tt i wld burst 1 day

Lord,
still my tongue.. i sense myself straying abit off e track
Lord, keep me in check
pls help me not to let go of ur promises once again.
pls help me to reject the devil's lies which nvr fail to dishearten me..

hohoho its a new week (:
but for Him, mum i love you

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Friday, July 27, 2007

t'was a semi-hilarious day (:

we were marvelling at e sch gg to such extremities such as MEASURING SKIRT LENGTHS of e girls today.. heeeeee i thk God i wasnt late by that extra 1 min, where G*NESH APPEARED to catch all the non-kneelength skirts....

HEEEE wei ee is really e ultimate sotong ball...sooooooo blur blur de hahahaks...
cute lahs! i cant believe her memory is better than mine!!! =x

funny when we helped shelby escape frm her last 30 min of CO torture.
HAHAHA evading e tcher like e vehicle owners evading tax. (my head is full of econs after e essay outlines we did today)

then, we watched shermaine eating her whopper in 7 BITES

WOW

oh n we witnessed some gangfight at e interchge while gg home....
scary mans...
e guy was like..holding his knife above his head n chasing after tis other guy..alamak...
wei,shelby n i immediately siam siam siam, if not confirm will kena bang.

if u really do love Him,
why are u still making up so many excuses
constantly telling me how victimised u are aint gonna make me pity u.
seeing how much hate 1 can contain never fails to amaze me

feeling abit weird right now...
y cant we juz ..
Lord, teach me to love

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Wednesday, July 25, 2007

picture this
its 0740, n ure running late
u rush in frm e sch gate, only to find G*NESH standing there GLARING at.........
no not u, but ure skirt length

HAHAHA
ok so today kitty n shelby got caught..
few days ago apple & co got caught..
wonder when i'll get caught
cos he's practically catching every girl at sch
despo?

crazy jc wiv crazy expectations
imagine how enraged every girl was hahahaha

(1) skirt must be KNEE LENGTH,
but it doesnt really matter coz he expects it to be below ur kneecap so u'll get caught anyway..
furthermore, when e skirt was bought, it was already above the knee.
wat wld he do if we wore sarongs to sch?
wat's funnier, he tells us to buy our skirts according to length, not waist size.
SIAO where got so rich, go custom make all my skirts?!

(2) WHITE/BLACK SHOES (juz a nicer way to get us to wear sch shoes) with visible WHITE socks?!?!!!!!!!
needless to say, tis is crap. like hello, which jc forces its students to wear sch shoes? i threw mine away e mmt i graduated frm sec sch lahs. so worn out after dunno how many yrs of wearing

(3) fringe MUST be PINNED UP
..... hmm... er.... wat abt those wiv stubborn short fringe tt cant be pinned up? tie like red indian liddat arhs? -_-"

put it all together n wat do u get?

A NERD

oh great mans... the nerdy neighbourhood jc
like we arnt being looked dwn upon enuf

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Sunday, July 22, 2007

something more - kristy starling

"Everything's changed, and I want to believe
There must be a reason, there just has to be
Cause my faith is strong, till it all hits home
And it's not enough for me to trust
When it hurts too much

On the days I feel like I've failed you
The days I feel I've been failed
I need to praise You
For I am Yours, I'm Yours

Where is the power, to give what I gave
Give back the strength
Give back the faith I had yesterday
Cause you are my God
You are my Great I Am
And I know I have fallen but..
I have landed in healing hands

On the days I feel like I've failed you
The days I feel I've been failed
I need to praise You
For I am Yours, I'm Yours

And in my fraility, you lead me to something more
So I close my eyes, cause inside my heart
I believe, that I'm not alone
You'll always be there for me

On the days I feel like I've failed you
The days I feel I've been failed
I know that I need to praise You
For I am yours, still yours
Cause I believe you lead me to something more
Something more, something more..."

this sweet sweet song hits home :)

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Thursday, July 19, 2007

always gets me smiling / laughing to myself when i c dese pics...e rest can be found at curry's blog

2 days to SATURDAY!!

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Tuesday, July 17, 2007

i ABSOLUTELY HATE studying at home
not only do i get interrupted every 10 min,
i gotta endure mum's yelling if shes in a bad mood

its distracting lah!
im still stuck on e same page of my notes can?!

ugh

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dinner ytd wiv kairi, CHUBBYgrace, ping, jean & dru
:D
waiting for kairi n CHUBBY to upload e pics.. *hint hint*

anw,
today was sweeeeeeeeeett
even tho it wasnt exactly a pleasant day free of trouble,
small small incidences tt happened made me feel loved and protected by God :)

i can imagine Him,
hiding his neverending gifts for me behind his back, with a grin on His face,
telling me to hold out my hands,
while He can barely contain His excitement at the thought of e joy i would feel when i received those gifts.

was thinking abt e events ive got for e rest of tis yr, n i realised tt ALOT of stuff will threaten my time spent at church
haiz.....

nevertheless,
i believe thru prayer, it'll work out
yes i believe (:

one day one glorious day,
i'll offer my praises in the presence of angels

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Sunday, July 15, 2007

actually had a pic i wanted to upload here to sum up saturday's workshop at sch
BUT cldnt...
so i shall sum it up in a word instead, to make up for e picture
1 word : CRAP

missing cellgrp n svc...ALOT

but gotta thk God even so..
i was supposedly late on tt day coz i woke up at e time i was supposed to report to sch.
why? cos my unreliable clock stopped at 0102 am n did not ring at 0620 like it was supposed to.
imagine e racket i caused early on a sat morning when i woke at 0730..HAHA

chionged by cab....thk God there was 1 even tho it was e peak hr.. managed to reach at 0745..
thruout e day, was kept alive by e constant crapping of my beloved frens..
tho we had LOADS of complaints, managed to last thru e day
thks kairi, & especially chubbygrace for enduring my constant whining hahaha

ive been singing n singing n singing praises to Him all day arhahahakz...
it was raining today... but it stopped when i prayed coz i nded to walk quite a dist home..
filled wiv joy even as e dark clouds loomed overhead
they're beautiful in a way...
my God created tt ^^

hais i miss u ppl mans...
:(

6 more days to saturday
Lord, sustain me

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Friday, July 13, 2007

ITS FRIDAY THE 13TH!!! WAHAHAHAHAH
n i heard tt its ben's bday so happy bday dear boy!
hahahakz stop growing taller!

anw, unoe how e superstition goes right?
friday the 13th = SUAY day
ARHAHAKZ and e middle one in a photo will b the first to die

to add on to tis EERIE suay day mood, i shall show u guys an exclusive picture of my creation, the monster, SHELBY-STEIN!!!

ARHAHAHAKZ

sorry...... was feeling abit random, hence, e "qian-da-ness".
anw, im waiting for curry to finish sch.

curry...i dun wanna cancel our dinner date cum fellowship :(

PRAYING for her to come home soon, in fact, cos she got held up at e last min...

im hungry

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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

today was HORRIBLE HORRIBLE HORRIBLE
by 9.30am, i buay tahan n started complaining to chubbygrace..
yups... i felt 6 feet under the longkang....
super :(

e 1st thing i did when i entered our ct venue was to turn on e com, check my econs results.

BAM!! a big fat U stared right at me.

sad lahs! ive dsa-ed myself straight into self-study program (ssp) which is on SATURDAYS.
ugh
y liddat?! my saturdays are like damn precious to me can?!?!?!?!!? 1st e dumb/lame leadership workshop, and now tHiS?!

made me think of linkin park's song-in the end
"..i tried so hard to get so far,
in the end, IT DOESNT EVEN MATTER!!"

ok fine, i told God, i WILL study even harder if wat im putting in isnt enuf.
im not gonna let ath else prevent me frm going to church anymore.
IVE HAD IT.

to add on to tt raw wound i juz suffered,
i almost lost my beloved phone!!!!
yes, even tho its full of scratches ,
it STILL HOLDS SOME SENTIMENTAL VALUE to me!!!!
thank GOD thank GOD we found it.... tHANKS GUYS ^^

then,
EVERY SINGLE TEACHER shoot me during lessons.
im like WHAT LAH ARRRRGGGHHHHHHH im pissed enuf n u teachers gotta come shoot me wiv so many qns?!?!
y so qiao? ALL my teachers target me?!
dey paka de isit?! SUAY LAH!

to add on to tt, i oso kena shoot b4 our GP lesson by some PW GRP LEADER...
*rolls eyes*
ugh long story...
but e whole class saw how unreasonable she was to me

I SAY, IF this incident happened 3 yrs ago when i was even more of a hot head,
there would hav been a shouting match.
CONFIRM guarantee chop.

was so irritated during gp tt i gave mr chan some of my qian da attitude.
( those hu hav known me for quite awhile shld be able to understand wat i meant right? )

I FEEL SO BAD NOW CAN?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!
sorry mr chan, i shall be guai tmr..

even so, even so,
today made me reflect on my past.
i truely believe God changed me.
if such a terrible day happened to me a few yrs ago,
i wld hav pulled a LOOOONNNNGGGG face e WHOLE day and probably the nxt.
yups tt was me...

but i managed a smile right after gp period^^
hohoho
my light at e end of e tunnel STILL isnt an oncoming train
arhahahhakz
:)

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Tuesday, July 10, 2007

it hurts
when u see someone u consider a fren, a sister in Christ doing such stuff,
when she slowly evolves into a monster you've nvr known,
letting hate devour her soul.
when she becomes ashamed of HIM,
when everyone sees only wat shes been doing wrong,
when you try to help, but ur efforts are seen as nth but a nuisance

it hurts doesnt it?
when you witness the changes in her, right in front of your eyes,
and all your prayers go unanswered.
even if you know it will come to pass in His time,
nevertheless, it hurts

you feel helpless
why is she lying? cursing? pretending?
is she drifting away frm hu i tot she was, or has she been like tis all e while?

it hurts also,
when someone u regard as one of ur closest friends starts to drift further n further frm you.
wat happened to the friendship forged?
and you begin questioning yourself,
was it forgotten? were you forgotten? or were you too naive to believe all that?
hav u been left a mere acquaintance, or had you been a substitute all along yet never knew it?

even as you nvr told anyone all these probs ure facing?
wont you feel even a slightest pinch, when even more probs are added on?
no, u cant tell anyone cos you're not ready
no, because it doesnt feel safe to do so anymore

dun treat me like im stupid, cos im not
dun think im clueless, cos im not
dun think u know me well enuf, cos u definately dun
pls, pls dun do wat i think ure gonna do
it'll juz worsen everything

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Monday, July 09, 2007

amanda is a happy girl today :)

but she misses her cell group dearly cos she knows she cant go to church tis sat.
ALL because of the EVIL school of hers, which forced her to go on a leadership workshop tis sat.
amanda decided to skip it n go to church instead, for who in their right mind with amanda's character will attend such a workshop tt juz wastes away your life?!

but e EVIL SCHOOL of hers was 1 step ahead. they had made e workshop COMPULSORY.
to add on to her misery, they told her n her classmates that they had to PAY a dear sum for it

-_-"

so amanda decided to send I MISS YOU messages to some of her cellmates to prepare her for her FORTNIGHT without her beloved bros n sis in Christ.
she would REALLY REALLY wish to spend more time with them aside from saturdays, but she cant, for TIME is being as E.V.I.L as her school

that alone got her on HIGH n hyped up for e rest of the day.
she sang praises to HIM n felt HIS joy on her.
she sees a light at the end of the tunnel, and she knows tt its not an oncoming train

if only time could be controlled,
she would choose to give her parents more time to spend wiv her when she was little, so that there will not be so much distance btw them now.
if only, yet we all know it will never happen

so amanda decided to start praying for the day to come,
where she can finally talk to them like friends.
where she can finally love her family to e fullest like she should

yup, shes a happy girl today :)

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Sunday, July 08, 2007

ytd, tis opera guy walked into church wiv a bowtie n a weird accent .
during worship, he was super loud, singing wiv his opera voice .
thruout e svc, he was super enthu .
of cos, we laughed .

but i feel bad tho.... tts not wat a church shld be doing.
got me thinking abt 1 of Casting Crown's songs written to condemn a particular church for not accepting someone.
mayb tts e weird guy's way of worshipping, mayb we juz gotta learn to get used to him.
he doesnt really care wat others think of him, juz being in God's presence alone.
jean said tt he might even b joining our cell..

tt was what i thought

UNTIL we met tt guy at e bus stop .
he started talkin to us .
it started out alright de.... he sounded normal.
THEN he started gg on abt not being able to hear himself during worship, thus afraid tt God cant hear him .
his own church being e best in s'pore johor n batam -_-" .
his scolding when we smiled (or forced a smile) .
his encouragement to us to buy lottery so we can strike rich (tis is so lame) .
his motto being to do wat christian actors do .

CRAP LAH! crazy fella .
wat u expect us to do lah! frown at a stranger instead of smile?
u like ur church so much den y u bother to come here n tell us all tt?
so if tt christian actor jump dwn building u oso will issit? wah so smart ah!
den if he take drugs, its ok for other christians to take also issit?
wah seh u go follow him lah! i see!
cannot hear urself during worship? HELLO the WHOLE floor was distracted by you can?
wat u trying to do? attract attention?

ugh disgusted

i pei fu kairi.. able to tahan him.
halfway thru e conversation, yan ping n i were so turned off tt we auto put-on our DAO faces

if he really really really gonna enter our cell arhs.....
i seriously pray tt we dun get influenced by his "mannerisms" .
but like wat jerry said, if its God's will, we juz gotta accept it.
juz pray tt i will b able to control my temper.
God, still my tongue so i wun say ath super mean to tt guy.

BRING IT ON

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Friday, July 06, 2007

SENTOSA PICS!!!

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Tuesday, July 03, 2007

SATISFIED ^^

1) i managed to run, swim & go to sentosa over e past few days

2) i managed to suan some of e poly kias during youth day HAHAHAHA

3) I PASSED CHINESE!!!!!!! oh my goodness THK GOD lahs!

4) i managed to suan nut n her guy AHAHAHAKZ

heeeeeeeee
how can one not be happy mans?! wahahahakz

went to school red today
nope its not coz i blushed alot
nope its not coz i put make-up
its coz i got burnt at sentosa AHAHAHAKZ
im a total apple right now
wei ee is a total pikachu
HAHA

nanajo, i really really missed u n ure crazy antics lahs.... boo u for doing well for Os

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Sunday, July 01, 2007

IM IN Z3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wahahakz thk God mans!!
no Him, no time to rush there, no voice to sing
with Him, all goes well ^^

ps. thks for e milo kc n shun :))

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