Thursday, June 26, 2008
2 options:
you either try & succeed,
or you die trying
for me, it was the latter.
those 3 hrs felt like eternity. all i managed to churn up were repeats of the qns on my answer script, because no amt of my mathematical knowledge accumulated over the many many years of education that i summoned with all my might seemed to be of any use today. for the first time ever, im not even confident of securing 10 marks. yes. not even 10 pathetic marks.
when i get overwhelmed, i end up stoning. (and ppl around me start worrying coz i start making big actions like tearing/detachig paper violently, shaking my head, thinking that im fed up when in actual fact, im not. just depressed haha)
i looked over to my left, where mrs kwang & ms ng's students were - all scribbling frantically away.
i looked over to my right. (i dun wanna say whose students we belong to). and i must say, its comforting, at the same time unsettling, to see many fellow stones.
and i sat there, freezing cold, feeling even more dejected than ever. somewhere along the aisle, someone's tummy growled. i sat there, churning up not solutions to the ants on my qn paper, but prayers to Him. about almost everything.
i nvr stoned this much before. its not a good feeling
in short. im screwed.
well done college. another killer paper.
ive only just begun to unfold, to have the courage to hope again, to dare to even dream bigger, but so soon, im being put to the test. Today, one of my pillars was lashed. cracked it may be, but it will not crumble because a power greater than I holds it up. i still have a reason to rejoice. God's been so good this past wk man!
and as i told CHUBS (ahaha :p) & some others, i hope you're not holding out your umbrella today, so we can get drenched under His downpour of love.
love love love. his perfect love is so unfathomable man. yet so tangible.
and yeah. balling & crapping with friends help a lot too :)
yay. end of exams for now :D
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