Friday, December 01, 2006
i dunno wats tis feeling i feel right now..emptiness?fear?shock?sorrow?somehow i feel masked..
alice jie has cancer....she oni has 3 mths leftmy thoughts went to her hubby..to her 3 lil kids...esp chauntel hu has grown so accustomed to hiding betwn her dear mum's legs whenever ani1 spoke to her.how r dey gonna go on without a mum?!
my thoughts went to whether she is saved..whether she is willing to hear abt the word..whether there'll b sum1 hu is willing to share it wiv her.my thoughts went to whether she's in pain right now..how shes doing..is she giving up hope..is she giving up her bubbly self,her cheerfulness,her childlike innocence to sickness..
my thoughts also went went to whether i'll b able to see her nxt cny..will i b able to c her ever again?will we be able to??m i gonna miss playing pictionary wiv her? she was e 1 hu taught me how to play afterall..back when i was 9..back when we 1st took a cruise tgt as a family..back when she was still gg strong..
imagine my prayer tt nite i found out...God will u send an angel to her? will u help her during her darkest times?will u console her family?will u giv her a 2nd chance at life? or will u take her home..will u giv her strength till tis crisis is over?wateva it is..God i trust in ur plans...
all inoe is i must b strong....i cant let tis affect mi tt much...so must continue to b happy.....ive been so grumpy last yr n inoe others arnd u will feel sucky shld u cont being moppy..but im tired of tis...in nicer words,its putting on a gr8 big facade for e greater gd..but im living for me..
tis is so soooo contradicting myselfhope is wat turns us into cowards.not acceptance-louise spiegler
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