Friday, March 31, 2006
picture tis->sitting on e bus home after a hard day..ur mp3 player is playing "where'd u go" by fort minor..e sky has ominous clouds, contradicting e beauty of e flowers which resemble sakura blossoms on a whole stretch of trees by e roadside..
yup tts wat i did today..
3am
woke up to find myself bitten by mosquitos everywhere...including my wrists...where e vein is.. i immediately turned on e lights...aha..found e bloody mosquito n started smacking it..den go bac slp..totally pleased
430 am
woke up again ..did e same thing...killed another bloody mosquito..
6am
woke up 4 sch..e 5th day of my cold war wiv my mum..well....she juz cant understand my probs.. rather believing my sis than me for a fault i din make...typical biasness
650am
i was in a total blur...found myself walking along e library..my hairs stood on end...something felt wrong....saw eddy ahead..tried to catch up...budden while walking past e entrance... heard a kid giggling...i turned to look in....saw sumthing flash past....totally freaked out...e cold stayed wiv me all e way till e end of sch
330pm
track trg in sch..played catching...was real happy at 1st....budden..
445pm
i asked y today trg so lac...he say coz tml got competition...n im running..--> "WHAT?!?!"
he tells me i hav a comp tml..expecting me to b so free..so prepared for it...i mean...come on.he din even tell me where wat time wat event...expect me to noe..make it sound like my fault i dinno theres a comp tml...hes juz majorly psychotic
i got real pissed...its not e 1st time he's doing tis to me..he say i wun get cca pts if i dun go..haha i KNOW i wun get any even if i went..if he truthfully wants to help me get cca pts he wld have updated me on e shit comps he has been putting me in w/o my knowledge
i really wanted to argue..but tts my 1 way ticket out of getting even 1 cca pt...so i controlled...i was seething wiv anger...hes such a hypocrite..if he dun wan to help me out wiv e cca pts thingy, he cld hav juz not put me in ath right...but wat he's doing is hurting me so much more
530pm
stared at e "sakura blossoms look-alike"..i feel like im going into a lapse of depression any mmt
825pm now...
alone at home...my imagination's startin to go wild.....
i dont want e world to c me
coz i dun thing tt they'd understand
when everything's meant to be broken
i juz want u to know hu i am
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7:35 PM
